tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-52743245130390735532024-03-08T13:29:21.290-08:00Words in a Whirlwindjust my own original stuffDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.comBlogger325125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-24629413105351845402009-07-11T13:24:00.000-07:002009-07-11T13:26:24.021-07:00The Arsonist...He's Dead Now...*note: rewrite of The Tragedy of the Arsonist<br /><br />There was nothing complicated about it<br />Just a box of matches<br />Few gallons of gasoline<br />It was so simple<br />Surely even he could do it<br /><br />[Watch it burn!]<br />[Watch me burn!]<br /><br />Something sadistic about his smile<br />Something nervous in his hand<br />(What's this? Regret?)<br /><br />[Burn it away!]<br />[Burn everything!]<br /><br />(Embers, embers)<br />Light memories on fire<br />(Ashes, ashes)<br />Pain erase pain<br /><br />Taking pride in the flames<br />Finding joy in the flames<br />A sick smile before he burned away<br /><br />Ironic the sky lamented his sorrow<br />Shed tears he never could<br />Yellow suits in red trucks came<br />And washed away the remains<br />Lights still flashing<br />"There's no one inside the building"<br /><br />She stands alone<br />No one will move her<br />Eyes glazed over<br />Ashes remain<br /><br />He stole her heart<br /><br />(The flames took his)<br /><br />Haunting memories<br />Twisted him; became<br />What he never wanted<br /><br />She wanted to help<br />She tried to help<br />She wanted to help<br /><br />[Burn it away!]<br />[Burn me away!]<br />[Burn everything!]<br />[Everything!]<br />(To ashes)<br />The blaze dies<br />Down...DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-68741002356419744592009-05-11T22:31:00.000-07:002009-05-11T22:31:00.079-07:00Get Over ThisI saw you everyday<br />It's gonna be weird when your not there<br />I'll probably forget you died<br />For a couple of days at the very least<br />I could sound insensitive right now<br />But it's true<br />It'll probably slip my mind<br />Because you were there each and every day<br />And I could say that I'll never forget you<br />But that would be a lie<br />Yeah, I'm gonna miss you<br />And I hope you find peace soon<br />But I'll move on from this<br />I have too<br />But before I go<br />One last thing<br />The very last thing<br />I never got to say<br />"Rest in peace man. <br />Goodbye."DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-11605143616845557342009-05-10T21:57:00.001-07:002009-05-10T22:04:55.980-07:00Life's Too SuddenLife is too cruel <br />People cry everyday<br />People die everyday<br />But why<br />Oh why<br />Did it have to be you?<br />...<br />I can't take this!<br />I just saw you yesterday<br />You were fine<br />You were smiling<br />You were breathing<br />...<br />I wish I knew what happened<br />I wish I knew it wasn't your fault<br />I wish I could turn back the hands of time<br />Go to where you are<br />Hold you back from your grave<br />I wish I could save you<br />But I can't<br />Your already dead<br />...<br />I never believed in an afterlife<br />But I never said it wasn't there<br />And if your up there<br />If you can hear me<br />I really hope your happy man<br />Hope you found peace<br />Hope you found something <br />But fuck man<br />I can't get over this<br />I feel like I don't want to be close to anyone anymore<br />I don't wanna see them cry<br />I don't wanna see them die<br />If this is life then maybe I don't want to liveDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-42330404075825271252009-05-10T17:37:00.000-07:002009-05-10T22:40:05.151-07:00(just for fun)Do you know how to spell?<br />Can you spell the color grey?<br />Do you spell it with an 'e'?<br />Do you spell it with an 'a'?<br />I've been asking all around<br />But all around they sound the same<br />Can you spell<br />The color<br />Gray?DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-80915093197132508422009-05-06T21:13:00.000-07:002009-07-09T12:12:35.860-07:00FutureThe heroes<br />They're dead now<br />These morals<br />That we held<br />Are just dust<br />In the ground<br /><br />Six feet under<br />Our breath we<br />Feel lost but<br />Move on <br />Unsure of <br />Tomorrow<br /><br />But so sure of this moment<br />It makes me sick<br /><br />I reach my arms<br />As far as they can<br />Trying to hold on<br />To what's lost<br />But it's never better there<br />Where we came from<br />We've moved on<br />Now we got these problems<br />Nothing left but to solve them<br /><br />Our pride never<br />Saved us our<br />Lies never <br />Gave us what<br />We really <br />Wanted all<br />The lipstick<br />And plastic<br />Pretty worthless<br />Never lasted<br />We're searching<br />For happy<br />-Ness or <br />Something like it<br /><br />If ignorance is bliss<br />Let's all be ignorant<br /><br />We've come pretty far now<br />Dug our hole pretty deep now<br />The sky's growing farther away<br />The night eases off to day<br />Are we moving forwards<br />Or in reverse?<br /><br />All the books we never read<br />Had no chance of saving dead<br />It was us who took us down<br />The fall is ours and no one else<br />Who's left to blame besides ourselves?<br />There's no one left: we are dead now!<br /><br />It was my fault<br /><br />It was yours tooDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-75306650215143310232009-04-12T12:22:00.001-07:002009-04-30T19:12:57.100-07:00Come Back Home (I Miss You)So I know<br />Everybody's got a life to live<br />Everybody's got a chance to give<br />A gift, so precious<br />But I can't help it<br />Just let me be<br />Here I am <br />Being selfish<br /><br />I want you by my side<br />Through the day and through the night<br />(I miss you)<br />And your smile<br /><br />So won't you please just <br />(Come, back, home)<br />Come back, where you belong<br />And I know <br />That this might be wrong<br />And I know that<br />(I)<br />Never did<br />(Nor)<br />Never will <br />(Know)<br />Every single thing in this<br />(Whole, wide, world)<br />But I know for certain<br />For sure<br />Known ever since before<br />I started this little <br />Play on words<br />For you<br /><br />I'm just trying to tell you<br />Short and sweet<br />Simple and clean<br />Plain and simple<br />I miss you<br /><br />I miss you<br />Been missin' you<br />For<br />(Far, too, long)<br />And it's hard<br />When you<br />Occupy <br />This song<br />All along<br />I always knew<br />It would come to this<br />And believe me <br />I took a chance <br />But missed<br /><br />So won't you please just<br />Won't you please just<br /><br />[Come back home]<br />(Come, back, home)<br />I've been waiting<br />I'll be waiting<br />With open arms<br />[I miss you<br />Said I miss you]<br /><br />And today's <br />Another one <br />Of those days<br />The days <br />When you feel like<br />You can say<br />What's on your mind<br />What you feel<br /><br />(No hesitation)<br /><br />I'm taking this chance<br />To let off my chest<br />What I've been trying to say<br />(Dying to say)<br />Ever since you left<br />No<br />I'm not happy with this<br /><br />And who knew<br />That I <br />Would ever<br />Write like this<br />Matching every other word<br />With a different rhyme<br />'Cause a rhyme scheme<br />Is too cliche <br />For me<br /><br />And these words are flowing<br />Partly 'cause<br />Right now <br />No worry<br /><br />You've been too far<br />For too long<br />And I'm just <br />Writing you this song<br />So you won't forget<br />Where you came from<br />And I hope you met<br />Somebody new<br />And interesting<br />Maybe we<br />Can get along<br />Like nobody else<br />And I hope for you<br />The best<br />And nothin' less<br />'Cause that's <br />(Just the way I am)<br /><br />It's kinda funny<br />How I keep wishin'<br />That you're alright<br />That you're okay<br />You stick and stay<br />With it<br />Make it through<br />Make a memory<br />Of it<br /><br />But at the same time<br />Wishin' that you just<br />(Quit)<br />Hurry back home<br />Jump into <br />These open arms<br />I'll hold you forever<br />Or until you say so<br />Whatever the case<br />I'm just<br />Tryin' to let you know<br /><br />(I miss you)<br /><br />Won't you please just<br />Oh won't you please just<br /><br />[Come back home]<br />(Come, back, home)<br />I've been waiting<br />I'll be waiting<br />With open arms<br /><br />(I miss you)<br />Like nothin' else<br />(I miss you)<br />Like nobody else<br /><br />Now it's time <br />To call it quits<br />That's a wrap<br />Tie this away<br />Final words to say<br />'Fore I leave<br />It's okay<br />I've been waiting<br />And I'll keep waiting<br />'Til you come home<br />Tellin' everyone<br />That you made it<br />(I hope you make it)<br /><br />Just hurry up<br />[I miss you]<br />(Come, back, home)DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-8258805909870016422009-04-11T23:07:00.000-07:002009-04-11T23:43:24.087-07:00JohnnyJohnny never lived his dream<br />Never had a chance<br />Got drafted, sent to boot camp<br />Trained about a day<br />Then it's time to leave<br /><br />No gun on shoulder<br />Barely a soldier<br /><br />And over there<br />Overseas<br />Saw terrible things<br />Watched his best friend die<br />Right there in his arms<br />Cried out for help<br />All he got <br />Were bullet shells<br />Dropping to the floor<br /><br />Bodies piled up<br />And every face, he knew<br />Were put in his squad<br />One day or the other<br />And now they're dead<br />Nothin' showin' for it<br /><br />Well<br /><br />Johnny came home<br />And we threw a parade<br />That lasted less than a day<br />And after we<br />Left our separate ways<br /><br />Johnny served his country <br />Hooray<br /><br />But that very same country<br />Left him out in the dark<br />Left him for dead<br />Left him with the nightmares<br />All the faces with blood<br />All the bodies dismembered<br />The bombs still dropping<br />In Johnny's mind<br />And they drop<br />As he screams in the night<br /><br />Yeah<br /><br />Johnny got medication<br />But all it did was<br />Make Johnny just wasted<br />Left him with the fear<br />With the blood on his hands<br />Left him with the image<br />Morphine = high demand<br /><br />And the nightmares<br />Don't get me started on that<br />Johnny can't function<br /><br />Right<br /><br />In a world<br />With such bright lights<br />And every other sound<br />A bomb to his ears<br />And now<br /><br />Johnny's just wasting away<br />Living every night like<br />It's the last of his days<br />He's so sure he'll <br /><br />(Die tomorrow)<br /><br />But relives the sorrow<br /><br />(Everyday)<br /><br />And now he<br />Can't live in his home<br /><br />He worries the children<br /><br />And his wife remarried<br /><br />The court took his little kids <br />In shackles and chains<br />Gave 'em to people<br />Who want paid<br /><br />And Johnny sits there alone<br />On a park bench and cold<br />Cop tells him to leave<br />And Johnny wants <br /><br />(Just) <br /><br />To tell him his story<br />But can't talk right<br />And the cop won't listen<br /><br />Johnny's out of a bed<br />Now he wanders the streets<br />Not sure what he's looking for<br /><br />Really needs a home<br />But nobody wants him<br /><br />(He's crazy)<br /><br />Rattling on about<br />How he served in the army<br />Served his country<br />Got home, had a parade<br />Lasted less than a day<br />And his wife left him<br />Court took the kids...<br /><br />(...No one's listening)DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-48366594259017561912009-04-11T22:34:00.000-07:002009-04-12T00:48:26.975-07:00Losing SightSo focused on tomorrow<br />We forgot about today<br />Past is even further away<br />Irrelevant to the present<br />Or so we like to think<br />And history is set on repeat<br />Mistake after mistake<br />We give, then we take<br />Back what was ours<br />Take any, it's ours!<br /><br />Now I don't mean<br />To be a rebel<br />But if so <br />Then that's your label<br />And I hope really<br />You revel<br />In the rubble<br />I'm about to rain down<br />From the sky<br />The very clouds<br />That hover over us<br />Every single day<br /><br />And it's like this<br />We can't hit<br />We miss<br />Because we can't see<br />The whole world's<br />One eye blind<br /><br />I'd like to see you try<br />To stop your life<br />Just for a second<br />Hold your breath<br />Stop your heart<br />Watch the leaf fly by<br />Don't you feel something wrong?<br />There's a war going on!<br />People are dying<br />And we worry about the economy<br />But nobody<br />Wants to remember that<br /><br />Focus on the good times<br />Let's all lie to ourselves <br />Make us feel better<br />Why not?<br />Give me medication<br />Make it go faster<br /><br />The children of tomorrow<br />Were abandoned today<br />We left them for dead<br />They're as bad as the past<br />Moving on before we ever settled down<br />But the future is ours!DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-81579387642285657952009-03-16T22:27:00.000-07:002009-03-16T22:46:54.621-07:00I'll Save Myself[I don't <br />Want to be saved]<br />If it means<br />Giving up<br />On me<br />[I'll find a way through this]<br />[Find a way<br />Find my way]<br />My own<br />Way<br /><br />(I don't <br />Want this)<br />Your shining hand<br />Offered to my stoic face<br />[I'll shove it away<br />Turn you away]<br /><br />Call me stubborn<br />Call me [crazy]<br />Call me anything you want<br />[To hear]<br /><br />I'm determined<br />Determined to find a way <br />(I can call my own)<br />Find a way<br />[I tried]<br /><br />That's yours <br />[Not mine]<br /><br />Salvation never <br />Sounded so empty<br />(I don't want your)<br /><br />[Fragile words]<br />They cut<br />So deep<br />Blood flow forth<br />(Drain me)<br /><br />How can I believe<br />What you force<br />[On me?]<br /> <br />I <br />Can't take (this)<br />Anymore<br /><br />I<br />Can't take (this)<br />Anymore<br />Anymore<br />No more<br />[No more]<br /><br />My path<br />(Deviates)<br />From dancing (angelic)<br />White feathers<br />My path <br />(Deviates)<br />From the shadows<br />(That fall from the sky)<br />My path<br />Walks alone<br />Tries to learn<br />(Tries to know)<br /><br />Still searching<br />Searching<br />For the reasons<br /><br />I want to know<br /><br />(Why?)<br /><br />(Why?)<br /><br />How can I believe?<br /><br />I want to know<br /><br />(Why?)<br /><br />(Why?)<br /><br />What you force on me?<br /><br />I'll save myself<br /><br />[I'll find it<br />Find it on my own]<br /><br />I'll save myself<br /><br />[Why?]<br /><br />I'll save my<br />Self...DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-21175117464857746552009-03-12T23:05:00.000-07:002009-03-16T18:21:12.146-07:00Tell itAll the kids<br />In my life<br />Had their own voice<br />And weren't afraid<br />To say what was on their mind<br />In fact we'd shout from all the high places<br />"Standing on the rooftops <br />Everybody scream your heart out!"<br />Yeah, we'd shout until the night faded to day<br />And we'd say<br />"We are We are<br />The youth of the nation"<br /><br />Each and every one of us<br />Is different<br />Unique and special<br />We're individuals<br />Capable of anything<br />We set our minds to<br />From the grand master schemes<br />To the little things like<br />"I can ride my bike with no handlebars<br />No handlebars<br />No handlebars"<br /><br />We're out to disprove their fact <br />That "In the end<br />It doesn't even matter"<br />And while we fight<br />We struggle<br />"We give it all"<br />But still...<br /><br />We need some support<br />Someone to lean on<br />If it all falls down<br />"Promise me you will be there<br />Until the red light will change"<br />At least<br />At the very least<br />The bare minimum<br />But can you even give me that?<br />Or will you hold out<br />Wait to see the fallout<br />But by then <br />I'm out of air<br />Or would you care?<br /><br />Yeah, we're imperfect,<br />But don't you dare say we're worthless<br />Cause I know for a fact<br />When these lives collide<br />A new idea comes to life<br />And breathe tomorrow<br />Another day<br />To say<br />How much we appreciate<br />The little things<br />No one else can see<br />But we<br />We know better<br />Cause we're there<br /><br />"I'm not okay"<br />And that's fine because<br />This life isn't perfect by designDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-2841711203464612562009-03-02T19:55:00.000-08:002009-03-02T20:26:02.017-08:00IdentityI<br />Wear my heart on my sleeve<br />But you're telling me <br />To take it off<br />Tear if off<br />Rip it out<br />And I keep trying, trying so hard<br />But it's stuck, stapled to my arm<br />But you bleed<br />You fight<br />You try<br />To stay on top of the game<br />Stay cool<br />Be cool<br />But it's never one in the same<br />Because it keeps changing up, day to day<br />Almost about as often and fast as the time<br />That blows by you, the past<br />Every single of day your lifetime<br />And when you're there<br />It's never permanent <br />Because it's impossible<br />You can't keep up<br />You won't last<br /><br />So<br />Give me the world with no logos<br />No tags<br />No groups no clicks no demographics<br />Just give me the masses<br />People who want to learn to love to live<br /><br />I'm telling you<br />Take the kids out of factories<br />Let 'em know what fresh air is<br /><br />I don't need you<br />Or anybody else telling me<br />What to wear<br />How to act<br />Or who to be<br />Please<br />You don't even know me<br />Not the first thing<br />That anyone with eyes can see<br />I'm me<br />Just me<br />No one else in the world exactly like me<br />But damn<br />We can get pretty close<br />But not exactly the same thing<br />We got our own names<br /><br />We're different<br />And it doesn't take much <br />To know this,<br />But you persist<br />And insist <br />That you can dictate the trend<br />When people don't give in (so easily)<br /><br />And I told you<br />Before any of this mess ever started<br />That you should just roll with it<br />This is no physics<br />The outcome can't be predicted<br /><br />We're alive<br />We keep changing<br />The passing of time <br />Is <br />The only thing the same<br />Until we change even that<br />Oh, wouldn't that be the day?<br /><br />We got faces<br />Let's see 'em<br />There's no need to hide<br />Our identity isn't our clothes or cash or cars<br />But who we know we are on the inside<br />And it's sad to see <br />That some people can't even tell <br />The difference between you and me<br />They group us up<br />And say "they're all the same"<br />But really,<br />Who's the one to blame<br /><br />I'm tired of everyone's ignorance<br />There's things we'll never understand<br />But that doesn't mean we don't need to explain<br />If we just tell each other what we really need<br />Then there'd be no reason to feign innocence<br /><br />And<br />That's the beauty of being human<br />We learn to live and grow<br />But it'll never happen if you don't try<br />Because some people just wait to die<br />And I hope you aren't one<br />There's a crowd to join and follow<br />But I'm more interested in tomorrow<br /><br />Tell it to the market analysts<br />Treating us teens like sheep<br />Herding us together to sell us "hot"<br />And in a few days it'll be "not"<br />It's not like they care about you<br />Don't give me that look you know it's true<br />The money is all they want<br />But I'm getting out<br />Because I can't stand the noise<br /><br />Give me the world with no logos no tags no fads no trends no fashion even<br />Because all I really care about is who I am as a person<br />I don't need you telling me who I am<br />Or what I want, or what I need<br />I'll be who I choose to be<br />Because you don't know the anything about me<br />I'll even give you a hint<br />I like to breathe<br /><br />"Your soul is alive but they want it from ransom."DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-26992361843558073342009-03-01T21:09:00.001-08:002009-03-01T21:17:19.007-08:00It HurtsI know now you never felt that way<br />About me<br />But do you know what it's like?<br />Loving with no return<br />Foolish feelings don't seem to fade<br />What was I to you?<br />Just a friend?<br />Right?<br />It hurts<br />Because<br />Right now,<br />I can't let go<br />There's a thing we humans have<br />It's called hope<br />It's what pulls us through<br />The brink of despair<br />It's why we live<br />We hope for a better tomorrow<br />And that's keeping you here<br />In my heart<br />It's been broken<br />Torn up<br />Shred to pieces even<br />But hope pulls it back together<br />And you're still here<br />Nothing makes sense right now<br />And I'd make a fool of myself<br />For you<br />But <br />This feeling<br />Won't fadeDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-86671318715780453782009-02-20T18:30:00.000-08:002009-02-20T18:35:40.585-08:00It's Not That I'm Not Grateful...It's just that sometimes I wonder...<br /><br />Father<br />Let me be selfish for a bit<br />Tell me <br />Why do you try so hard?<br />Why do you care<br />About what I do<br />Or who I'm with?<br />I haven't done anything for you!<br />Tell me<br />Tell me why<br />Is it some sort of pride?<br />Or do you feel responsibility?<br />Is it your duty?<br />Or a distorted sense of honor?<br />You're not forcing me to eat<br />You just leave the food on the table<br />I think my door keeps you out<br />Because you don't knock when I close it<br />You don't come in unannounced<br />You don't search and seize<br />You just talk to me<br />I hear you<br />But I'm not listening<br />But you just talk<br />What am I worth to you?<br />Don't say the world<br />Please<br />I don't deserve it<br />...<br />You know<br />Your kindness hurts sometimesDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-36690314090056435082009-02-19T17:03:00.000-08:002009-02-19T17:11:50.207-08:00WhirlwindMy heart is a whirlwind<br />Of mistakes <br />Memories<br />Regrets<br />Dreams<br />Love<br />Loss<br />Fears<br />Joys<br />Nightmares<br />And what if's<br /><br />They circle around<br />In the most vicious of winds<br />Sharp as thorns<br />Cutting my insides<br /><br />I feel like I'm dying<br />From the anxiety of tomorrow<br />And what it brings<br />Because I'm forced to let go<br />Of yesterday's dreams<br />And face today's realities<br />Bracing for pain <br />That remains timeless<br /><br />The whirlwind spins outward<br />And grows to envelop my body<br />The winds so thick they block my vision<br />Force so strong they distort the voices<br />I can't make out what they're saying anymore<br />They're just...noise<br />Someone's there <br />But who is it?<br />Are they for me?<br />Are they against me?<br />Do they even care?<br /><br />It's not what can I be?<br />It's what will I be?<br />If I have the potential<br />Doesn't that frighten <br />Anyone else but me?<br />There's light within me<br />To compliment the darkness<br />Who's to say one won't<br />Overtake the other<br />Along with my heart?<br /><br />But for now the winds are blowing<br />Stronger than ever<br />I sense change<br />But I'm not sure<br />If it's for the better<br />All I know is that the wind is blowing<br />Raging in my ears<br />There's noise in the background<br />All I see are figures<br />Distorted shadows<br />But all I really know for sure<br />Is that I'm stuck in the eye<br />Of a whirlwind<br />That has the potential to destroy<br />Or just disperse...DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-4560973216035745712009-02-03T22:24:00.000-08:002009-02-19T17:00:05.210-08:00We're Mixed, Yet So Messed UpAll the colors are smeared<br />Across the faces of the people<br />We know no longer a "pure"<br />Yet we still try<br />With dark secrets beneath the surface<br />And filters in full effect<br />To limit them below our vision<br />Drive them below our aspirations<br />But we were raised with a bar to reach<br />A bar to exceed<br />To extend our reach far beyond anything<br />We imagined through the mysteries of our dreams<br />So why do we try to do what we've hated<br />For so many generations<br />Why do we work so hard to make ourselves shine<br />At the expense of the potential of our future?DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-9539789521340463852009-01-13T21:57:00.000-08:002009-01-13T22:01:38.643-08:00What to BelieveYesterday I saw a man on the street<br />He wasn't dead beat or tired<br />Dressed in jeans and other attire<br />White beard pretty clean, eyes unfrozen<br />Nothing out of place, nothing broken<br />He was holding a sign in black ink<br />"Homeless. No casa. Please help me."<br />And I sat in the car, passenger seat<br />Thinking<br />Wondering whether or not to believe <br />The story he told, or was it just a lie?<br />Judging whether or not to buy this for real<br />Driver just turned the wheel<br />Ignored him<br />Because<br />We've seen so many things in our lives<br />A lot of half-truths, just plain lies<br />Everybody tries to get theirs for free<br />And I've grown cold to those around me<br />I don't feel sorry for him because he looked<br />Perfectly fine, get out, get a job, dollar or dime<br />It's crazy<br />We're so dependent on medication <br />That we don't know the meaning of dedication and<br />Hard work<br />Too lazy to utter an "erk"<br />Keep moving along, passing by, gone...DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-4965257384781884792009-01-02T23:29:00.000-08:002009-01-02T23:36:18.202-08:00Lying Little PillI'm sick and tired<br />Of trying to be alright<br />I'm not okay<br />Not okay<br /><br />But you don't believe<br />You won't believe<br />Say you can't ever<br />Believe me<br /><br />Swallow the pill<br />It'll make you better<br />(You're such a liar)<br /><br />I'm trying to tell you<br />Been trying to tell you<br />But you're impossible <br />To talk to<br /><br />It figures...<br /><br />The one person<br />I'm supposed to talk to<br />Won't even listen to me<br /><br />You call it excuses<br />But I'm trying to help myself<br />Trying to find an answer<br />Without asking questions<br />Because you're no help<br /><br />Swallow the pill<br />It'll make you better<br />(You're such a liar)<br /><br />There's plenty more<br />Left to say<br />But even these<br />Won't reach you...DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-5796850004825961422009-01-02T23:08:00.000-08:002009-01-02T23:29:44.849-08:00Hate Me[You hate me<br />I hate me<br />So who's left<br />To join in the fun?]<br /><br />[You hate me<br />I hate me<br />So who's<br />Left?]<br /><br />Where is my (joy)<br />Where is my escape<br />(Why can't I)<br />Ever seem to be <br />The one<br />(You want)<br /><br />[I'm not perfect<br />You're not perfect<br />They're not perfect<br />But perfect <br />Is what you want]<br /><br />[We're not perfect<br />It don't exist<br />But perfect<br />Is all you want]<br /><br />(Perfection)<br />An illusion<br />(Perfection)<br />I hate it<br />(Like me)<br /><br />[But still you scream<br />You scream<br />At me]<br /><br />I'm no mistake<br />No mistake<br /><br />I'm just me<br />Just me the me I want to be<br /><br />[Why don't you open <br />Open your eyes<br />Stop acting blind<br />I know you can see<br />Stop lying<br />Stop trying]<br /><br />You blame me<br />(For yourself)<br />You blame me<br />(For myself)<br />You blame me<br />(For anything)<br />You blame me<br />(For everything)<br /><br />[I can't take anymore]<br /><br />...<br /><br />If you cut me<br />And I cut me<br />How many cuts will it take?<br />Will I bleed?<br />Will I die?<br />Will you see?<br />Will you try?<br /><br />[Take this blade]<br />Cut me deep<br />(Maybe I'll)<br />Finally feel<br />Something<br />(From you)<br />Be it pain<br />Or pain<br /><br />[All that you ever gave me]<br /><br />I hate me<br />(Cut me deep inside)<br />You hate me<br />(You finally gave me)<br />Something to feel<br />[Pain]<br />All that you give<br />All that you give<br /><br />I'm not perfect<br />(You're no better)<br />Stop dreaming (because)<br />I'll never be<br />(Who you want me to be)<br /><br />I'm just me<br />(Just me)<br />Just me<br />(Just me)<br />I'm just<br />Me<br /><br />[Someone we can all hate]DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-47285483705452558662008-12-23T23:01:00.000-08:002008-12-23T23:07:14.846-08:00Waiting to FlyEven after the years fly by<br />And we grow older<br />Will you ever understand?<br /><br />The pain you cut <br />So deep in me<br />The nights you watched me bleed<br />Watched me scream<br />You heard nothing<br />It was written on your face<br />In a shade darker than black<br />I've gone numb from this hurt<br />Jaded<br /><br />When we take a turn for the worse<br />And death shows its face<br />Will you ever think of me<br />In the light?<br /><br />The tears I've shed<br />I'll never show you<br />Because you wouldn't see me<br />you're blind to my suffering<br />Oblivious in your own perfect LITTLE world<br /><br />I wasn't born as perfect<br />Because there's no such thing as perfection<br />But you just keep trying<br />Keep believing in NOTHING<br /><br />I feel like I've wasted my time here<br />My life<br />But there's nowhere else to go<br />Because I haven't found it yet<br />I've grown my wings<br />Just wait until I learn to fly<br />My day<br />My timeDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-43431957903773276732008-12-16T22:49:00.000-08:002008-12-16T22:53:04.251-08:00Not Very ReceptiveI will never say the words you want to hear<br />I don't have them in me<br />Search all you want<br />They were ripped from my chest<br />And burned to ashes<br /><br />There's nothing that will birth the sound<br />The bittersweet touch<br />The uncertainty that you crave<br />There's nothing in my chest<br />Nothing that excites me<br />There's a hole<br />A dark, empty whole<br />I'm probably missing something there<br />But I'll never find<br />I don't want it<br />I don't need it<br /><br />Your eyes are bleeding<br />Clear streams, inconsistent streams<br />Why are you still here?<br />There's nothing for me here<br />There's nothing for you here<br />There's no one here<br />I don't exist<br />I just pass byDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-21114087909950933912008-12-16T22:45:00.001-08:002008-12-16T22:49:56.023-08:00Lost HopeI have no joy to tell you<br />I have no good news<br />I don't come in peace<br />I break it <br />Tear it to pieces<br /><br />This cold glaze in my eyes<br />Isn't meant for friends<br />So why would you try?<br />No one bothers with me<br />I don't bother with them<br />I don't need...them...<br /><br />I swear the shadows dance around me<br />They whisper to me<br />They scream at me<br />They grab me by the heart<br />And choke me to death<br />Only to bring me back<br />To do it all again<br /><br />There's nothing left for me to believe in<br />I refuse<br />There's no one here for me<br />Abandoned<br />Again<br />Not again<br />It's only again<br />Silence is all that I crave now<br />I've acquired a distaste for company<br /><br />These were built for resisting<br />Locks were made for solitude<br />Doors aren't mirrors<br />I don't have to see myself<br />My shadow is my reflection<br />I don't need a face anymore<br />No one cares about me<br />I don't care about...them...<br /><br />I'm just a voice<br />Echoing somewhere<br />Maybe it's the wind<br />Maybe it's my ghost...DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-81547046374223262682008-12-16T22:42:00.000-08:002008-12-16T22:45:13.524-08:00It Only Goes Down From HereI'm feeling dark today<br />So get that light out of my face<br />Before I drag you down with me<br />How would you like that?<br />The shadows will devour you whole<br />And nothing will remain<br />But your bare bones<br />Could you face yourself in the mirror then?<br />Could you live without the plastic?<br /><br />I'm feeling alone today<br />So get away from me<br />I'll lock you out<br />Of my room<br />Of my heart<br />Of my life<br />Stay away<br />No one will enter<br />I won't leave<br />Never<br /><br />I'm feeling agitated today<br />Just try me<br />I dare you<br />I double dare you<br />Try it<br />And see what happensDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-57009855999294940752008-12-16T22:21:00.001-08:002008-12-16T22:45:29.848-08:00You're No SupportI cried out for help<br />And you yelled at me<br />Yelled at me<br />YELLED AT ME!!!<br /><br />If I could stop this<br />Don't you think I would?<br />Do you think I'm so stupid?<br />Don't lie to<br />LIE TO ME!!!<br />Tell me<br />What you think<br />What I think you think<br />What I know you think<br /><br />If I could explain<br />These inexplicable noises<br />Do you think I like this?<br />I was never perfect<br />We were never perfect<br />You swear I want this<br />I never wanted<br />Never wanted it<br />Never wanted this<br /><br />Tear me apart<br />Cut out the wrong<br />What's wrong with me?<br />WHAT'S WRONG!!!<br /><br />Why<br />Can't <br />I<br /><br />Let me be<br />Let me by<br />Let me be<br />Let me by<br /><br />You'll never know<br />How much it hurts<br />To hear your words<br />Stabbing me<br />Constantly<br /><br />You'll never<br />Understand<br />My pain<br />No matter how hard you try<br />You'll never try<br />To see my side<br />No<br />You'll never try<br />Just yell at me<br />YELL AT ME!!!<br /><br />I'm crying<br />Crying<br /><br />I'm dying<br />DyingDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-21914431351889189642008-11-30T22:29:00.000-08:002008-12-02T21:34:32.163-08:00Forgive a Failure, FriendWe hung out all day<br />Had fun all night<br />Thinking everything<br />Would be alright<br />(That's never enough)<br />I never told you anything<br />Never shared a secret<br />Never trusted you<br />(That way)<br /><br />But as we stand here today<br />About to go our separate ways<br />(I'm dying to say)<br /><br />I'm sorry<br /><br />I'm sorry<br /><br />(I never defended you)<br /><br />We'll lie to ourselves<br />And promise <br />To <br />Keep in touch<br />(But never will!)<br /><br />And someday<br />You'll forget <br />Me<br />And I'll do the same<br />To<br />You<br />We'll drift apart<br />(Further away)<br /><br />And maybe you<br />Will see my name<br />In the <br />Paper<br />And remember <br />What we <br />Used to play<br />But I'll be <br />Just a thought<br />(Not all you've got)<br /><br />I'll be dying (inside)<br />So slowly<br />(Regret) regret<br />(Go away)<br /><br />Go away<br /><br /><br />I'm sorry<br /><br />I'm sorry<br /><br />I never defended you<br />(Enough)<br />I never defended you<br />(Ever)<br />I'm a failure<br />(As a friend I failed you)<br />This<br />Is the <br />End<br />(I'm sorry to death)<br /><br />There were days<br />When they stabbed you in the back<br />And you weren't there<br />I never stopped them<br />(Instead)<br />I joined them<br /><br />I hated you<br />I hate me more<br /><br />(And everyday<br />I wish)<br />I could <br /><br />Turn back the time<br />And stop myself<br /><br />But no such thing<br />As a time machine<br />(Regret go away!)<br /><br />I never defended you<br />Never defended you<br /><br />Maybe one day<br />So very far away<br />I'll have the courage<br />To come to your door<br /><br />And spill my guts out<br />For you to see<br />A secret (a secret)<br />I'll <br />Tell you<br /><br />(I never defended you)<br />Ever<br /><br />And you'll <br />Hate me for a day<br />Hate me for a year<br />Hate me until<br />You feel<br />Better<br /><br />Go ahead <br />Do the same to me<br />I don't care<br />Let's call it even<br /><br />Hate me <br />Until<br />You feel better<br />I don't care<br />I'll feel better when<br />This is over<br />(Even)<br />Again<br /><br />Hate me for a day<br />Hate me for a year<br />Until you feel<br />Better<br /><br />I'm dying to say<br />I'm sorry<br />(I'm sorry)<br />I'm dying to turn<br />Back <br />Time<br /><br />I never defended you<br />(I'm a)<br />I never defended you<br />(I'm a)<br />Failure...DragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5274324513039073553.post-52978952765498521882008-11-23T12:16:00.000-08:002008-11-23T12:21:50.524-08:00Enter Free FallWhat led you<br />To this<br />Distress?<br /><br />You don't wait for sirens<br /><br />You bleed by<br />Your hands<br /><br />He'll fall<br />From the heavens<br />Or twenty stories up<br />Close enough<br />He'll take it<br />And drop<br /><br />His heart is racing<br />Pumping adrenaline<br />Through his veins<br />He won't feel a thing<br /><br />But before he lands<br />Face first<br />On cement<br />He can't breathe<br /><br />Goodbye cruel world<br />Goodbye cruel world<br /><br />But the cell phone in his pocket<br />He doesn't hear it<br />He can't hear it<br />He's dead<br />One missed call<br />One new voicemail<br />"Please don't die.<br />Please don't die."<br />She cries<br />She's crying<br />And it won't stop there<br /><br /><br />They gather around<br />A mangled mess of flesh<br />And bone<br />They don't care<br /><br />He made front page<br />Top story<br />Without a name<br />Just an age<br />A gender<br />A race<br />They don't care<br />We don't care<br /><br />But he's dead<br />And she'll suffer for itDragonRaidhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04575972727590566713noreply@blogger.com1