...Pity...

...please excuse me drowning in self-pity...

I feel like I'm just watching
Watching every breath leave me
Watching life just pass me by
I watched her slip away
I watched everything fall apart
I'm still picking up the pieces
I'm still dropping the pieces
I can't grab a hold of it
It slips through my fingers
I want to go somewhere
Anywhere
But I have nowhere
No one
To hold
Nothing
I'm missing something
I can feel it
The emptiness
But where do I get it?
Where do I get mine?
Maybe it was a mistake
I guess I'm already dead
Someone just bury me

But I can't help but dream about it
Reaching for it
Blinding but I want it
I can't help falling for it
I can't help falling for her
I want it
Life

...sorry about that...