Life Is A Gamble

How do I know she won't
Take my heart and
Tear it to pieces
And scatter the ashes
Of trust?
I don't

How do I know they will
Judge for who I am
And not what I am?
I don't

How do I know
What to do with my life?
How to support a family?
What to teach a life?
I don't

But I have the faintest idea
And I'm all in on it
I'll risk all I have for it
And cast the dice
And hope I'll land
A lucky number seven
Maybe
Or
Maybe not

I Am...Human

I am
complicated
conflicted
confused
observant
ordinary
thoughtful
turbulent
theoretical
critical
criticized
loving
lost
lacking
shameful
shameless
suffocated
surreal
understanding
underestimated
influenced
ignorant
resistant
reckless
But most of all
I am mortal,
Human

Dusk to Dawn

Morning
As the grass sheds
Its last tears of the night
And as the clouds continue
To head toward disaster
As the peaceful moon
Flees from the raging sun
And the stars hide in fear
Fade from sight

Evening
The stars creep back
To the sky for all to see
The moon finds peace
In losing the vengeful sun
The clouds conceal
Their movements
The grass weeps again
For losing its sun

Maybe

Maybe shyness is a blessing
And ignorance is bliss
Being different,
Unique,
And separated from the crowd
A talent perhaps
Standing on the other side
Of the looking glass
And looking in
The value of the darkness is
No one can see you
Anonymity
Is a relief
No one can judge you
By your appearance
Only by your words
Can they grasp
The essence
Of your person
To understand
The struggle to express oneself
In a world filled with ridicule
Call it cowardice
But it has its advantages

Male

Sex surrounds me
"I would" this
"I'd hit" that
I'm sick of it all
Why is my gender
So blind?
They can't see
The ripples in the water
Cause and Effect
"Fear nothing" they say
But what of the inevitable?
Can you really ignore
What is bound to happen?
"Be a man" they say
Define man for me
Is he a reckless,
Emotionless, overbearing,
Lustful, ignorant
Creature?
Does he define weakness
As emotion?
Sympathy?
Empathy?
Such a stereotype...