Cotradictory

I wish it was that easy
I wish it was that simple
To lay out everything in front of me
Reveal every hard-kept secret
Tell the truth about every lie I've told
Lift this burden from my shoulders
But pride is a hard enemy to defeat
Guilt is friend I don't want
Shame is someone I don't want to meet again
All is exposed in the light...
Is that why I hide in darkness?

I Sorry

I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm sorry I'm only human

I make mistakes
I have regrets
I have memories I wish
I could forget
I bleed
I hurt
I feed
I thirst

I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted
I'm sorry I'm not what you thought
I'm sorry I'm not like you
I'm sorry I can't be like you

I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm sorry I'm only human

Fire

Will we die by fire?
Burning away
Burning our time,
Our life away
Do we feed the embers
And fan the flames?
As we watch the smoke rise
And suffocate
We try to save ourselves
But it's too late
Watch us burn down
To ashes
And be swept away
By wind,
By rain

Relating to Myself

I think that I relate better with my shadow
Than my reflection in the mirror
Because the shadow retains anonymity
Yet giving shape to a human
I feel the mirror betrays me
I don't see myself as myself
I see me in a different way
Through different eyes
But few could ever understand that
Time may change my appearance
And that is the curse of seeing
My reflection in the mirror
But my shadow will stay the same
Retain its form, anonymity
Because the soul is eternal
And never fades
But the mirror breaks

Words Drifting In My Mind...

Why can't I stay
In paradise?
I keep falling
And have fallen
From grace

Why is it I always try
Yet never win?

These words will only last
As long as paper