Saturday, December 29, 2007

[Warning: Strong Language in the Following Reality Check] Unrelenting (Meant to Offend You)

You fucking whore!
Can think of nothing
But sex?
Ever wonder why you get hurt?
You prance around
Like you were just born yesterday
Slutacious bitch
Why don't you try dressing like a lady
With some modesty
Some respect
Maybe we could fix your problems then

Who the fuck do you think you are,
King of the universe?
Who the hell died
And made you king?
What power do you have
Over me?
Real mature
Using force
But for you
Gravity and physics
Can be a bitch
What goes up
Must come down
The bigger they are
The harder they fall
I don't see anyone
Catching you

Suck it up
Drama queen
Not everything is a tragedy
You don't even know
The meaning of the word
Go ahead
Pretty yourself up with makeup
Go buy some plastic
I'll watch you melt under the sun
Watch your false tears
While you assume
The fetal position
On the sidewalk
Under someone's magnifying glass

Fucking coward
Own up to your actions
Don't fucking run away
That baby is yours
Be a man
Own up to it
Take responsibilty
But NO
You just have to run away
Like the coward you are
Mistakes and regrets
Are yours alone
You'd better do something
Too late
The sirens are coming

Wow, don't be a bitch
I can fucking see you have my supplies
Yet you're telling me you don't have them
They're right fucking there!
A blind man could see that
But you just have to be
A snotty nosed bitch
Filing your nails
In front of me
Chewing your gum
Acting like you have no care in the world
You probably don't
But actions come back to haunt you
It's called karma
What goes around comes around
When you struggle
And ask for help
You'll be needed
And have nothing else to say
Except "Fuck"

That was the shittiest excuse
I have ever heard
Fucking liar
Think you can throw the blame
On someone else
Before they see you?
Problem with that is
You have to be quicker than them
One day you'll meet your match
And then your victims will catch up
And then you're screwed

Aren't we all hypocrites
We say millions of words
Yet never do anything
Said but never did
Received but never gave
Damn, we're fucked up

Sunday, December 23, 2007

lyrics from various artists

"somebody should have told you
it never comes easy
somebody should have told you that
there's no guarantees"
-Life is a Garden by Greeley Estates

"Where will I be,
I guess I'm on the run
and time is catching up behind me"
-When All is Said and Done by Trapt

"I don't ask for much
The truth be told I'd settle
For a life less frightening, a life less frightening"
-Life Less Frightening by Rise Against

"Am I running from you or am I running from me?"
-Running From Me by TRUSTcompany

"I'm not afraid of tomorrow
I'm only scared of myself"
-Tomorrow by SR-71

"I never wanted to hear (I never wanted to)
We are the only ones we are running from"
-I Never Wanted To by Saosin

"And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you"
-Numb by Linkin Park

"I hope it's something worth the waiting,
'Cause it's the only time that I ever feel real"
-Emily by From First to Last

"This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong"
-Never Too Late by Three Days Grace

"I'm left here with the question of just
what have I to show except the promises I never kept?
I lie here shaking on this bed, under the weight of my regrets"
-The Artist in the Ambulance by Thrice

"I have so many things
I would like to explain to you
But I don't know just how to
-I'm the Best at Ruining My Life by From Autumn to Ashes

"Failure leaves such a bitter taste in my mouth"
-You're Ever So Inviting by Underoath

"And we're bleeding colors of grey
Hear the screaming, fade away"
-Burnt Memories by Stutterfly

"Is it worth the can you even hear me?"
-The Taste of Ink by The Used

"Unlock these secrets in me
Describe the vision, the meaning is missing
Won't anybody listen?"
-Sleeping Awake by P.O.D.

"Headliners flash across our eyes deleting honesty through hidden lines."
-Believe What We Tell You by The Sleeping

"I've been waiting
I've been waiting for this moment all my life
but it's not quite right"
-Lazy Eye by Silversun Pickups

"This was my fate, giving in
To your lips, To your eyes
i should have known it would come back to haunt me"
-Always and Never by Silverstein

"Do you still remember back when days were longer, dreams were bigger then
The weight of the world had not yet landed on the shoulders of a man"
-Take Me Back by Story of the Year

"Is it me or is it you?
Something isn't right"
-Eraser by Smile Empty Soul

Saturday, December 22, 2007

The Box

It's so simple
So plain to see
Painted a single shade of black
From top to bottom
Side to side
Every inch
She holds the top closed
Tightly closed
No one will enter
She'll never leave

In a pitch black box
She finds her refuge
Hiding herself from the world

The people pass by
And they wonder
Who's in the box?
They can hear her screaming
They can hear her crying
They can hear her mumbling
But they do nothing
Only watch to see
What will happen
A cruel reality

In a pitch black box
She finds her refuge
Hiding herself from the world

And I wonder
What happened?
Was it so terrible
That she's afraid of the world?
Does she hate the world?
Was it so shameful
That she refuses
To show her face anymore?
No one will know...

She keeps her heart close
But her secrets closer...

In a pitch black box
She finds her refuge
In a pitch black box
Hiding herself from the world
In a pitch black box
She finds her comfort
In a pitch black box
Hiding herself from the world

Eye of the Storm

So deceivingly peaceful
So quiet
Almost silent
With echoing winds
So surreal
So out of place
In such a time
Houses being devoured
Tress uprooted
Chaos surrounding me
Ironic I find peace
Echoing screams
Last words
Everything we held dear
Taken away in an instant
But I find peace
In the midst of disaster
Alone in the tragedy
Standing still

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Christmas Coming

I can't wait
To come home
I can't wait
To hold you

This Christmas coming
Jingling bells
And decking the halls
Led by reindeer
I'm coming home

You're so cold
When I hold you
Your smile's faded
And your laughter's silent
What's going on?
What's wrong?

This Christmas coming
Rocking around the Christmas tree
I'll be wondering
What has you
Frozen over

You're so cold
Left me alone
To pick up the pieces
Of this heart you broke
You know
It's really hard
To drive home
With blurry vision

This Christmas coming
I'll be wondering
If angels are really held on high
Or do they fall
Just like us?

I'm here to say goodbye
Your pictures buried
Your written words burned
All that's left of you is memory
But it takes time
I won't say I'm sorry

This Christmas coming
In silent night
I sit alone
Trying to warm myself
In front of the fireplace
Trying to melt away the ice

(Author's note: Her name wasn't Erika)

Wednesday, December 19, 2007


A cold-blooded killer
Not with a blade
Not with a gun
Not with any weapon
But with a kiss she kills
Dressed in scarlet-red
With matching heels
She flirts and ensnares
The shallow
With betrayal she breaks
The heart of any man
Who falls for her trap
They fall
And keep falling
Until they find the strength
To rise up and stand again

He uses no force
He poses no threat
But that's part of the problem
He does nothing
Still and silent
To the rest of the world
To even her
A frozen heart
So many tried to reach it
Tried to hold it
Warm it
But they were buried
Beneath the snow
In his blizzard
Frozen solid


Are we machines
Coming off the assembly line?
All identical
Are we so plugged in
To the system, that,
We can't think for ourselves
Unless we download
The program?
Are we as cold
As steel when left outside
Freezing temperatures
We feel nothing...
Are we so dependent on oil
That we need it
To move our limbs,
To breathe?
Are we machines
Fighting wars despite the losses,
Fighting wars despite the reasons?
Do we obey orders without question?
Do we submit so easily to commands?
Are we replaced
By the latest versions
With newer features
And then thrown out in the dark?
Are we left to die?
No sentiment for the outdated...
Do we sell our souls
For the latest material
Do we surrender our humanity?

If so then...

Take me back, back,
Back to better days
Back to when we could think
When we could breathe
I want to feel again
Give me back my heart
I choose, to be,

Monday, December 17, 2007


The flames burn brighter now
Embers scatter
Wood to ashes
The fire rises
Threatens to burn the sky
It dances wildly
Almost insane
Engulfed in fury
As is he
The fire burns in his eyes
The rage is blinding
All he sees is flames
And ashes
And embers
And flames
And embers
And ashes
And flames
His heart becomes the fuel
His body engulfed in flames
The fury consumes him
Soon nothing but ashes
As he burns out
And the ashes dispersed
By the wind
Plague the sky
A crimson glow
The flames die down
The fury dies down

Ripples in the Water

Can you wash your hands clean of this?
Can you wash your hands clean of this?

The ripples are plain to see
In such a calm lake
But they make their way
Downstream, over the waterfall
And come crashing down
On whatever lies in the way

Can you wash your hands clean of this?

The rain is impossible to dodge
In mass amounts it brings you down
The sorrow spreads
The pain multiplies
It brings everyone down
And who's fault is that?

Can you wash your hands clean of this?
Can you wash your hands clean of this?

You control the faucet
But only the faucet
The pipe is broken
And the water is bursting out
What do you control now?

Can you wash your hands clean of this?
Can you wash your hands clean of this?

The ripples are plain to see
In a calm lake
But what a storm you've caused
The waves of the ocean, clashing
Water, water everywhere
The winds vicious
And the clouds ominous
Can you stop such a storm?

Can you wash your hands clean of this?

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Drive Home

Changing highways
And following roads
Illuminated by faded lights
And the moon
We drive home
Your head leans on my shoulder
Breathing in rhythm
You're so peaceful
You know
When your sleeping
I wonder what dream you're dreaming

And it's nights like these
When I wish I could stop time
Cherish this moment forever
And it's times like these
When I wish you were mine
Love you forever

Ten minutes away
You sit awake
The sleep lingers in your eyes
As you watch the wheels
Roll over the last stretches of road
We're almost home
Maybe I'll drive slower now
To be with you
That much longer

And it's nights like these
When I wish I could stop time
Cherish this moment forever
And it's times like these
When I wish you were mine
Love you forever

We're here now
At your stop
This is where you get off
You wave goodbye
And flash that smile
Enter your house
And close your door
Leaving my heart out
In the cold

I drive home
I drive home
I drive home
I drive home

I wish I could stop time
Cherish these moments forever
I wish she were mine
Love her forever

What Have We Become?

We are cold
We are hurt
We tear out
The hearts
Of others
With no remorse
We are sick
We are twisted
We thrive on
And anger
And death
We are lost
We are scared
We are impatiently
For something
To come and...
Save us...

We try
We take
We'll keep going
On and on and on and on and
On and on and on and on
Until we get what we want
We lie
We steal
We'll do
And anything
For the adrenaline...

We are anxious
We are suspicious
We are paranoid
To the point
Where we suspect
Our own shadows
We are flawed
We doubt ourselves
We are our own
Worst enemies
The only ones
Holding us...

We are blind
We are deaf
We'll choose what
We want to see
And close our ears
To the truth
We are blunt
We are pride
We'll draw the line
In YOUR dirt
And dare you to cross

Hello World

Hello world,
Here I am,
A shadow to you,
A shadow to myself.

The mirror reflects no image
The voice makes no sound
But these words echo in time
As long as there is humanity

Hello world,
Here I am,
A shadow to you,
A shadow to myself.

As long as there is anonymity
We can express ourselves
With no worries
No one can see us
But can they know us?

Hello world,
Here I am,
A shadow to you,
A shadow to myself.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Say Something (Anything)

I don't care what you say
Just say anything
Don't stare at me
With empty eyes
I can't stand this silence
It's haunted me far too long
Say something, anything
Let me hear your voice
So I know I'm not alone
Not speaking to the walls
Not going insane
Not talking to myself
I don't care what you say
Just say anything
Don't stare at me
With empty eyes
Such a blank expression
On your face
The silence is deafening
Just say something
Just say anything
Don't leave me in this
Haunting silence...

Thursday, December 13, 2007


Will someone please explain
This, principle of pain
What's its purpose?
Is there a reason
Behind the sadness?
Wipe away your tears
I find my dreams
To be paper wings
That burn in the sun
My hopes, founded in sand,
Are founded in sand
They sink in the sand
Buried in the sand
Give me foundation
Tell me the reasons

Alpha Bet

Alone before crimson. Daring
emerging fires. Gravely
heralding "invincible." Jarring kings.
Lamenting men not only perhaps.
Quietly running slaves.
Truly upon vengeance
We X.
Yourself zealous.

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Too Close...for Comfort...

The deepest, darkest secret you've ever heard
Shed in a new light
The thoughts that ran through my head
The hesitation with every breath
Almost killed myself...once...

It was in mid-fall
With the grayest sky you've ever seen
And a wind that brought chills to your spine
My mind was a mess
My open-book heart was full of blank pages
Save for the spots of ink where someone almost started to write
Home alone, again,
Mind wandering
And wondering
Why keep going?

The knife was sharp
Never used it once
Thought about how quick it would be
If I stabbed my heart
Maybe the pain would feel comforting
Maybe my heart would finally have something to hold

But then, the memories flooded my thoughts
It was like emerging from a fog
And finally seeing what was in front of you
That blurred figure standing still as stone
Waiting for you

There was so much to live for
My whole life ahead of me
Hard to throw it away
It's not what she would want
It's not what he had taught me
Their words echoed in my ears
And the blade fell to the floor

I retreated to the corner
My hands were shaking
Breathing labored
Heart racing
I buried the knife
I even placed a gravestone
With the engraving "Suicide"

Too close...for comfort...

I will live on...writing...

Rings Around the Roses

I won't live with regret on my back
I'll search the world
For the cure
To this hurt
Bring on your worst
Your pain won't stop me now

Be calm, calm, calm,
Be calm, calm, calm,
Settle down...
We all fall...

I'll chase the light
Forever if it takes
Over land or by sea
I swear I'll catch it
I'll hold high
With both hands
I'll hold the cure
And relieve this hurt

I will prevail
Over Sorrow

Be calm, calm, calm,
Be calm, calm, calm,
Settle down...
We all fall...

Bring on your storms, Sorrow
I'll brave them without fail
Your winds of despair can't stop me
Your waves of tears won't stop me
I swear I'll bury you next to regret

Be calm, calm, calm
Be calm, calm, calm,
Settle down...
We all fall...

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Sympathy, Empathy

I'm waiting
Take my hand
And lead me
To your dreams
To the hopes
You hold
So dear in
Your heart

We're lacking

Tell me your fears
The reasons why
You shun the darkness
Why you hesitate
With every step
You take
Show me your memories
The images
That play
Over and over
And over again
In your mind

We're lacking

Lead me to
Your thoughts
Random musings
Of your mind
What are you thinking?
I will follow you
To your concerns
Do you worry
About what
Tomorrow holds?

We're lacking

As we come
To your heart
I feel
Perhaps starting
To understand
The other side

We're lacking

Monday, December 10, 2007


Are my dreams like a balloon?
So easily inflated
So easily popped
And then leaves nothing
But pieces
So hard to keep inflated
So hard to maintain
But it seems like it wants
To resist falling to the ground
It floats ever so gently
Barely makes a sound

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Paper Heart

Is my heart so frail
As paper?
Is it stapled to my sleeve
Displayed for all to see?
Is it so easily ripped,
Torn, shredded?
It's been written on
For the ink bleeds through
But the words are hardly discernable
Many are crossed out
Never meant to say that
But what if it runs out of space
To write?
Do I go get another one?
Or am I stuck with this one
With bleeding ink and crossed out words?

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Cast the First Stone

I don't want to believe
Everyone's guilty, but
No one's exactly

Who hasn't lied?
Who hasn't cheated?
Who hasn't stolen?
Who hasn't hated?

Who's never surrendered,
Given in to desire?
Who holds no regrets,
Never wanted to take
Something back?

Who's never felt
The raging fire
Of Wrath,
Our Anger?
Who's never drowned
In the waters
Of Sorrow,
Who's never felt
The frigid winds
Of solitude?

Is there innocence?
Are there innocents?
Do we only dream of better?
Can I hope?
Should I hope?

Wednesday, December 5, 2007


You laugh at me
Point and laugh
But quickly shut up
And pose innocent
When I come near
If you're going to mock,
Ridicule me,
At least do it in my face
Or stop acting like I never saw you
Because you can't hide in the light
Do you laugh at me
To make yourself feel better?
Are you so insecure
That you have to put me down
So you can rise up?
I posed no threat to you
And yet you attack me
Is it because you hate
That you're living a lie,
That you're plastic, fake,
And can't stand in the sun
Lest you melt?
At least have some integrity
Some responsibility
To account for your own actions
But I guess that's rare these days
I have done nothing to you
Save for this
But this is reasonable
Retaliate to retaliation with retaliation
Or so the world goes...


Don't pity me Father
I don't deserve it
Don't look at me, Father,
I'm no son
I've done something
So horrible
I can't possible be forgiven
I doubt mercy can save me now
Don't believe in me Father,
I'll only let you down
Don't worry about me, Father,
I'm not your son
The guilt is killing me
I've found no comfort
I've fallen too far from grace
Down is the only way left
I'll leave you
I'm sorry
So very sorry
But I know it's not enough

Monday, December 3, 2007

Don't Want to Forget Her

I don't ever want to forget her
So I'll dedicate this words
Record my memory
Tears are only temporary
But the sadness lingers
And the heart begins to heal
Slowly but surely
I have my pictures
Of her face
Of those eyes
That I could drown in
Of her smile
That made me smile
Without fail
But I wish I could hear her laughter again
So contagious
I wish her wings
Of white feathers
So she can fly all she wants
Feel the wind beneath her
Touch the clouds
Stare at the sun...

Saturday, December 1, 2007


The cold sets in
And my limbs numb
But it feels so comforting
So familiar
To not feel anything, anymore
I wish my heart could numb
So it could break
It could shatter
Into thousands of million of pieces
And I wouldn't feel a thing
I could bleed my heart out
And I wouldn't notice,
Wouldn't flinch
Would it be best
To be numb?


word = speaking/singing
(word) = whispering/echo
[word] = stern voice/screaming