Waiting to Fly

Even after the years fly by
And we grow older
Will you ever understand?

The pain you cut
So deep in me
The nights you watched me bleed
Watched me scream
You heard nothing
It was written on your face
In a shade darker than black
I've gone numb from this hurt
Jaded

When we take a turn for the worse
And death shows its face
Will you ever think of me
In the light?

The tears I've shed
I'll never show you
Because you wouldn't see me
you're blind to my suffering
Oblivious in your own perfect LITTLE world

I wasn't born as perfect
Because there's no such thing as perfection
But you just keep trying
Keep believing in NOTHING

I feel like I've wasted my time here
My life
But there's nowhere else to go
Because I haven't found it yet
I've grown my wings
Just wait until I learn to fly
My day
My time

Not Very Receptive

I will never say the words you want to hear
I don't have them in me
Search all you want
They were ripped from my chest
And burned to ashes

There's nothing that will birth the sound
The bittersweet touch
The uncertainty that you crave
There's nothing in my chest
Nothing that excites me
There's a hole
A dark, empty whole
I'm probably missing something there
But I'll never find
I don't want it
I don't need it

Your eyes are bleeding
Clear streams, inconsistent streams
Why are you still here?
There's nothing for me here
There's nothing for you here
There's no one here
I don't exist
I just pass by

Lost Hope

I have no joy to tell you
I have no good news
I don't come in peace
I break it
Tear it to pieces

This cold glaze in my eyes
Isn't meant for friends
So why would you try?
No one bothers with me
I don't bother with them
I don't need...them...

I swear the shadows dance around me
They whisper to me
They scream at me
They grab me by the heart
And choke me to death
Only to bring me back
To do it all again

There's nothing left for me to believe in
I refuse
There's no one here for me
Abandoned
Again
Not again
It's only again
Silence is all that I crave now
I've acquired a distaste for company

These were built for resisting
Locks were made for solitude
Doors aren't mirrors
I don't have to see myself
My shadow is my reflection
I don't need a face anymore
No one cares about me
I don't care about...them...

I'm just a voice
Echoing somewhere
Maybe it's the wind
Maybe it's my ghost...

It Only Goes Down From Here

I'm feeling dark today
So get that light out of my face
Before I drag you down with me
How would you like that?
The shadows will devour you whole
And nothing will remain
But your bare bones
Could you face yourself in the mirror then?
Could you live without the plastic?

I'm feeling alone today
So get away from me
I'll lock you out
Of my room
Of my heart
Of my life
Stay away
No one will enter
I won't leave
Never

I'm feeling agitated today
Just try me
I dare you
I double dare you
Try it
And see what happens

You're No Support

I cried out for help
And you yelled at me
Yelled at me
YELLED AT ME!!!

If I could stop this
Don't you think I would?
Do you think I'm so stupid?
Don't lie to
LIE TO ME!!!
Tell me
What you think
What I think you think
What I know you think

If I could explain
These inexplicable noises
Do you think I like this?
I was never perfect
We were never perfect
You swear I want this
I never wanted
Never wanted it
Never wanted this

Tear me apart
Cut out the wrong
What's wrong with me?
WHAT'S WRONG!!!

Why
Can't
I

Let me be
Let me by
Let me be
Let me by

You'll never know
How much it hurts
To hear your words
Stabbing me
Constantly

You'll never
Understand
My pain
No matter how hard you try
You'll never try
To see my side
No
You'll never try
Just yell at me
YELL AT ME!!!

I'm crying
Crying

I'm dying
Dying

Forgive a Failure, Friend

We hung out all day
Had fun all night
Thinking everything
Would be alright
(That's never enough)
I never told you anything
Never shared a secret
Never trusted you
(That way)

But as we stand here today
About to go our separate ways
(I'm dying to say)

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

(I never defended you)

We'll lie to ourselves
And promise
To
Keep in touch
(But never will!)

And someday
You'll forget
Me
And I'll do the same
To
You
We'll drift apart
(Further away)

And maybe you
Will see my name
In the
Paper
And remember
What we
Used to play
But I'll be
Just a thought
(Not all you've got)

I'll be dying (inside)
So slowly
(Regret) regret
(Go away)

Go away


I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I never defended you
(Enough)
I never defended you
(Ever)
I'm a failure
(As a friend I failed you)
This
Is the
End
(I'm sorry to death)

There were days
When they stabbed you in the back
And you weren't there
I never stopped them
(Instead)
I joined them

I hated you
I hate me more

(And everyday
I wish)
I could

Turn back the time
And stop myself

But no such thing
As a time machine
(Regret go away!)

I never defended you
Never defended you

Maybe one day
So very far away
I'll have the courage
To come to your door

And spill my guts out
For you to see
A secret (a secret)
I'll
Tell you

(I never defended you)
Ever

And you'll
Hate me for a day
Hate me for a year
Hate me until
You feel
Better

Go ahead
Do the same to me
I don't care
Let's call it even

Hate me
Until
You feel better
I don't care
I'll feel better when
This is over
(Even)
Again

Hate me for a day
Hate me for a year
Until you feel
Better

I'm dying to say
I'm sorry
(I'm sorry)
I'm dying to turn
Back
Time

I never defended you
(I'm a)
I never defended you
(I'm a)
Failure...

Enter Free Fall

What led you
To this
Distress?

You don't wait for sirens

You bleed by
Your hands

He'll fall
From the heavens
Or twenty stories up
Close enough
He'll take it
And drop

His heart is racing
Pumping adrenaline
Through his veins
He won't feel a thing

But before he lands
Face first
On cement
He can't breathe

Goodbye cruel world
Goodbye cruel world

But the cell phone in his pocket
He doesn't hear it
He can't hear it
He's dead
One missed call
One new voicemail
"Please don't die.
Please don't die."
She cries
She's crying
And it won't stop there


They gather around
A mangled mess of flesh
And bone
They don't care

He made front page
Top story
Without a name
Just an age
A gender
A race
They don't care
We don't care

But he's dead
And she'll suffer for it

Investment

I've been waiting
For so long
This moment
My moment
Please, let it be worth it
I can't be
Worthless

I'm not the same
After all these years

I'm better now
I think
I'm better now
I feel

All the ink I've bled
All the pain I've shed
Been adding interest

The future is fading
In my dreams
I'm chasing
Been chasing
For so long
Haven't caught it yet
But my moment
Right now
Let it be worth it

It better be...

Awake and Afraid

Stay awake
Stay awake

Beware my child
The end is coming soon

Be afraid
Be afraid

Nothing is ever
What it seems to be

Stay awake
Be afraid

Be wary of the lies
They will sell to you

Be afraid
Stay awake

(Keep your eyes vigil)
So that you can see

(When the time comes)
What we are
[Truly
Beneath]
This skin that keeps us
(Hidden so well)
From the world
[We never wanted]

Bottle

So bottle me up
Keep myself inside
Far away from the world

Am I saving you?
Or am I
Saving myself?
From the darkness
Those demons that never cease
To scream my innermost
Murder intent
The things so terrible
So terrible there's no words
To describe them
Blood is only the beginning

Am I running from you?
Or am I
Running from myself?
Breaking mirrors because of
That smile they flash me
One sadistic and unnatural
One never meant for this world
I surround myself in light
But it just fades away
The shadows overcome
The shadows creep closer
Closer to me
Close enough
Too close...

Can I trust you?
Can I trust myself?
Can I trust you?
Can I trust myself?
Can I trust you?
Can I trust myself?
Can I trust you?
Can I trust you?

Keep these chains locked tight
Swallow the key
Bury me six feet below
Cover me up
With pretty words

Force of Habit

Heavy breathing
Frozen rain
Broken sidewalks
(Faulty)
Street(lights)
Light my way
To somewhere
(Anywhere)
Far away
(From here)

And it's just like me to
(Run)
It's just like me to
(Run away)
[So far away]
The distance exceeds
[Your innersight]

Sever me from
The ties
These machines bind
Sever me from
The ties
These machines [bind me by]

I wanted to breathe
But not like this
Not like this

Count on it (Bet on it)
I ran then
I'll run now
Don't believe in me
(No)
Don't believe in me
I'll let you [down
So far below
The surface
Darkness awaits]

[So far below
The surface
Darkness]

(Come get me)

(Come get me)

Come get me
[Darkness]
Come get me
[Darkness]
Let me hide
(Fade)
Just
Dis
A
Ppear

[Darkness]

Shatter

You
(Would)
Ne(ver)
[Know]

The pain
(I feel)
[It cuts me inside
Tears me to pieces]
(Puts me together)
To do it all again

(The lies)
We buy
(The lies)
We swallow
(Just) [another trend
Your face will
Fade away
Soon enough]

(The shadows)
They call to me
(Hold me close)
Keep me safe
[Fight fear with a darkness]
(I am)
[Just a shadow
Just a shadow to you]

The mirror
(It haunts me)
[Break it to pieces]
Years of bad luck?
(Just ordinary)
Pathetic
(Shatter)

Shatter!

[Can you hear it?
Can you hear me
Screaming]

[Can you hear it
Can you hear me
Spilling]
(Me)

[Shatter]
Me
[Shatter]
Me
[To pieces]
To pieces!

Washed away
Down the drain
(Forgotten)

Dive

So dive right in
(Head first) thousand feet below
(The surface)
Move to the motion (of the waves)

They want a face
(Give them a smile)
So fake that it hurts
[Put it on
Smear it
Take it off]

Dive right in
(A thousand feet below)
The surface

[Lock it away]
Your heart
(The hurt)
Dull the pain
Dull the edges
Of those words
(So empty)
[You're bleeding]

(Head underwater)
Move to the motion
Of the waves

But you're so much deeper
[Deeper than this]
Shallow waters
[Leave them]
Shallow waters
[Leave them]
Take a risk
(Drown in yourself)

[So dive right in]
(Head first) thousand feet below
(The surface)
[Swim against the current]
At your own pace

Just go deeper than that
(Go deeper than this)
You're deeper than this
(So much deeper than this)

Let Go

I'm not who you want me to be
And I never will be
Just
Go away
I'm letting go
Because I'm tired of this
Disappear

To See

I
Want to see
For myself
[You
Never
Said
Why]
(You just said)
That I had to learn
(Had to listen)
To your words
(Unfounded though) they were
[Spitting your lies]

Take me
Somewhere (far away)
Where your
Greedy
Fingers
[Can't reach]
(And) I
[Only want]
To see
[For myself]
Is that
(So hard
To) understand?

Your words
(Never made)
Any sense
(Useless)
Syllables
(I hear)

Are we
[So far]
Apart
[That we]
Can't un-
[-derstand]
(Each other?)

[I
Hate you
I hate
You
I hate you
Swallow] (your) lies

(Do you believe
That you are the
Only one to
Ever breathe?)
Well I've got
News for you
[Wake up
From
Your
Pity!]

Take me
Somewhere (far away)
Where your
Greedy
Fingers
[Can't reach]
(And) I
[Only want]
To see
[For myself]
Is that
(So hard
To) understand?
[Is it?]

Breakaway

You will never
[Understand]
How I felt
[Locked up
In this cage]
(I'd like to think for myself)
[I'm not your slave
Let me be]

My future
Is mine to hold
[Mine alone]
The tables
Have turned (on you)
[Do you see now?]
The problems
(Created)
Left unsolved
[The pain you dealt]
(Scars will never fade)

I'm not your toy
Not your (experimental) [game]
This is life is (mine)
[Mine alone]
I'm not your slave
Leave me be

Why should
[I save
You?]
(You've only) given me
Memories
I want to
[Forget]
(Bury them in this place)
Where nothing
Lives

My future
Is mine to hold
[Mine alone]
(You will never)
Understand
[The pain I felt]
Locked up inside this cage
[I'd like to]
Think for myself
(You will)
[Never]
Understand

Just...

It's funny how
I'd love to be selfish
Just for an instant
Almost funny
To tears

It's so laughable
How I
[Lust
To scream
At the top
Of my lungs]
(And yet no one
Would) listen
To my screams
[Into sirens]

Writing the lyrics
To a song
You'll never (hear)
[I won't
Sing a
Word]
No you will never
(Hear)
You will never
(Hear
From
Me)

I'd love to
Tell the tale
Of this (sorrow)
Wallow in despair
[Wallow in pity]

It's absolutely
[Hysterical]
So humorous
How I long to be
(What I'll never be)
[Human]
How do you do it?

Writing the lyrics
To a song
You'll never (hear)
[I won't
Sing a
Word]
No you will never
(Hear)
You will never
(Hear
From
Me)

The nights were never
So comforting
(Subtle frost)
Chills my skin
(To crawl)
I lay uneasy
Mouthing words
With no melody
[No melody]

[I won't sing a word]
Lyrics to song
(You will) never hear
[Never]
(No melody)
[Silently]
I still
Waste paper
On (just a dream)
[Of mine]

Wait for Winter

I love the cold
The winter
Autumn a little
But mostly the cold

The frigid
The frost
The numbness of it all

I can freeze myself
Freeze these tears in ice
Freeze my heart solid
Keep it together
Keep myself together

Watch each breath
Escape my lips
My skin can crawl
Scared a little
Scarred a little

My body goes numb
And I can't feel
What I never wanted to

But then the summer comes
Spring
The sun

I lay ruined
My beloved
Frozen walls
Ice turned to water
Slipping away
Fading
My heart beats again
I can't see my breath
Tears blend with water

I wait for the sun to fall
Wait for the night
To bring back winter's chill
Sate my desire for frost
I wait
For winter

It's In The Paper

Do we know what truth is?
Can we see the light?

All I see is darkness
Lies for our headlines
The rumor mill is spinning
The wounds, they just keep spilling
Blood for their ink

Digging deeper into wounds
Scars never fade
They defile your past
And bury your future
All for someone to read
Make some profit off of your pain

Barter

Anyone want to trade lives?
Maybe some tragedy for a broken heart?
My "ordinary" for your difference
I'll trade you my scars
Or how about some regrets?
I see you have pain to offer
Got any spare memories?
I got some shattered hopes
And impossible dreams
Which one would you like?
I'll trade you my bliss for your ignorance
Here I don't want her memory
I'll throw that in for free
Will you come back for more?

So What If I Don't Make Sense to Myself

(Why)
Do you run
[So far away?]
(From me)
[Are you afraid]
Of my darkness?
[Are you afraid]
Of this light
That shines
(So faint?)
[This rose]
That dies
[Petals] (wither away)

Wait for
The sun
(To rise)
[Again]
Fade the
Day to
(White)
Maybe then (you can see)
Maybe then (you could breathe)

Or would you rather
Have the ravens
[Flood
The
Sky?]
Paint it black
[Make it night]

(And why)
Do you run
[So far away?]
(From me)
[Are you afraid]
Of my darkness?
[Are you afraid]
Of this light
(That shines)
So faint?
[These flames]
That die
(Fall to ashes)

[I hope]
You will
[But I know]
You won't
[And I hope]
You will
[But I know]
You won't

(Ever)

This love that [dies]

(Never)

I don't
Make sense
[To myself]
I don't
Make sense
[To myself]

Hope for the Best

(I can't feel you breathing)
I can't feel you breathe in
(I can't feel you breathe in)

Follow
(My finger)
Side to side
Follow
(My finger)
Side to side

[Don't
Lose
Hope]
I can't go on like this
[Don't
Lose
Hope]
I can't move on like this

Hear the sirens
(Rushing down the street)
Your fragile
(Hands)
Lose grip in
(Mine)
Hear the sirens
(Rushing down the street)
You fragile
(Hands)
Hold on

I place my trust (in the)
Pale doors
(Of the ambulance)
[I hope] you'll be okay
I place my trust (in the)
Pale doors
(Of the ambulance)
[I hope]

Stronger

Thank you for never believing in me
Never trusting
Never loving
Yeah, thank you for not caring
Where would I be
If it weren't for you?
Oh, I don't know
Somewhere better
For sure
Thanks for thinking I'm lazy
Thanks for never watching
Never looking for
Never seeing me for me
I do more things
Than you would ever know
Thanks for telling me
I'm wasting my time
Throwing my life away
Yeah, I figured you would never
Understand
This life is complicated
But I like it
It's mine
So thank you
For never believing in me
Without you
I'll be that much stronger

Forget Fantasy

How many years (has it been)
Since (I saw you?)
I wish you (well)
And I know(I will)
Never be your one (your only)
But is it so wrong (to dream?)
Dream along
(A playful) fantasy
(One that will)
Never be (real)
How many hours (have you) plagued my mind?
How many words (are meant) for you?
I wish you (the best) it can be
I wish you (the best) life (possible)
Knowing that (I)
Will never (be)
You one (your true only)
And I can't help
(But dream along)
A hopeless (fantasy)
For you (my first) only
Please just (forget me)
Forget me
(Maybe then) I could
(Follow you)
Maybe then (I could)
Forget you (forget you)
I wish (I could) just
Forget (my) fantasy

Different Me

I feel like I'm being pushed
Farther and farther away
We fight a lot more
Than we used to
I doubt she even cares
About what I think anymore
I think I hate her
But she's my mother
I owe her my life
But I've been thinking
Way too much time
On my hands
Would I really be happier
Somewhere else,
Born to someone else?
Would I be happier
If I was a different me?

Navy Reserve

A Navy reserve
Is called to active duty
He's leaving soon

That's what he told us
9That's what he told me)
But it was all I could do
To keep myself from screaming
[WHY!?]

Why do you fight their wars?
Why do you give your life?
(They're the cause)
(They're the fault)
Why fight the war [unjustified?]

Is it patriotism that drives you?
(Is it honor?)
Is it a [blind] conception of [pride?]

[Why?]
Why?
[Why?]
Why?
[Why?]
Why?
[Why?]

Is he just another one
(To them?)
A number
(Not a name)
A soldier
(Not a being)
[A soldier]

[Tragedy]
Casualty
[Stay away]
No grave for him
No graves today

Oh 8

What does a teenage pregnancy
Have to do with his election?
It's already settled
And really
Where hasn't that
Happened before?

And I thought we dreamed
Of a better world
Where a man wasn't judged
Based on his skin
But on his character
His character

And let's not forget
The words we said
Women are equal
Equal to men

What's wrong with this picture?
Someone please explain

What's so wrong with
Trying to earn a living?
A better life
To help the family
I've heard what they say
But
The jobs you'll never do
The jobs you'll never do

And what happened to
Alternatives?
Ever heard of ethanol?
Harness the power
Of the wind
Solar eclipse

What's wrong with this picture
I see?

Someone please
Explain
It to me
There's something wrong
What's wrong here?

Are we still fighting that war?
Are they still not home yet?

Danger! (Exaggeration)

Don't stray
Stay inside
There's too much shit in the air to breathe
Stay inside
Away from the UV rays
They cripple your skin
Don't drink the water
Poison to your veins
Don't eat the food
Early coffin
Don't think for yourself
I know best
Listen to me
I don't know you
Listen to me
I know best
Don't choose for yourself
Who knows what could happen
If you had freedom?
Who knows what could happen
If you lived a life
Live this lie
It's better
I know
It's the best
I don't know you
Listen to me

Apology

It breaks my heart
(To know)
She wouldn't care
(No)
She'd never know
(I'm gone)

If I were to die today
What would my
Last words be?
(An apology)

I'm sorry
(To have never met you)
I'm sorry
(To have never loved you)
I'm sorry
(To have never held you)
I'm sorry
(Sorry)

If I could still write
I'd write to her
(My one)
My only
Somewhere
(Somewhere)
Out there

I hope she's not waiting
I hope she's still breathing

But maybe it's better
(This way)
To have never loved
To have never lost
(Maybe it's better)
If we don't know
Each other's faces
(Faces)
We can keep
Dreaming

If I were to die
(Today)
My last words
Would be

I'm sorry
(To have never met you)
I'm sorry
(To have never loved you)
I'm sorry
(To have never held you)
I'm sorry
(Sorry)

From my heart
To hers
(Find a way)
To touch her
To tell her

I'm sorry
To have never
(Known you)

Promise

Can you promise me?
(Everything will be all right)
(Everything will be all right)
Don't lie to me
(Lie to me)
Don't lie to me
(Lie to me)
Can you promise me?
(Everything will be all right)
Everything will be all right

Would you know if I told you?
The pain...

Main Street

Main Street
A perfect picture
(Of beauty)
Main Street
Where everyone
(Gets along)
Main Street
Where peace and
(Harmony exist)
Main Street
What a lie
(We buy)

[(Give me the Main Street)]
With graffiti on the walls
[(Give me the Main Street)]
With broken, bloody sidewalks
[(Give me the Main Street)]
Where strangers sell the sins
[(Give me the Main Street)]
That's swallowed by the night

[There's no such thing]
As perfect harmony
[We only want]
What looks like the best
[The lies we buy]
The lies we swallow

(Our)
Bright
(Neon)
Lights

Can't
Shine
(For)
E
[Ver]

A false memory
[We won't (remember)]

[(Give me the Main Street)]
With graffiti on the walls
[(Give me the Main Street)]
With broken, bloody sidewalks
[(Give me the Main Street)]
Where strangers sell the sins
[(Give me the Main Street)]
That's swallowed by the night

We want to believe
We'd like to think
Everything
(Is alright)
Everything
(Will be okay)

(Our hearts are broken)
(Our dreams are shattered)

Don't lie to me!
Don't tell me
[Everything]
Will be alright!
[We're, not, okay!]

And this is
(Reality)
Where we
[Hate to live]
[On, Main, Street]
It's only a dream

(Give me something real)

Depression is Set on Repeat

It's easy to get depressed
When there's no one
To hold
To talk to
It's so easy to get depressed
When the night is so cold
When you're so alone
I'm calling out
And not even hearing
My own echo
The night swallows it whole
The night swallows me whole
It's the easiest thing
To be depressed
When your dreams are shattered
There's no hope for repair
When your heart's a mess
It's broken
Lost
Confused
Yet still hoping
It's easy to get depressed
When you feel empty inside
When you've lost all meaning
When the words you write
Stop making sense
The ink spills in circles again
It's so easy to get depressed
When you keep dreaming of her
The one you can't have
It's the easiest thing
To get depressed
Your day goes dark
Over the smallest thing
That brings back the haunting memory
Of everything you've lost
Of everything you ever dreamed for
Hope is crippling
Holding out for something to happen
Holding out for eternity
It's only hope
It's nothing
It's the easiest thing
To get depressed

Five Years

Five years from now
Will you know me?
Maybe I'll be famous
Or just another face in the crowd

Five years from now
Will the world end?
Is it our apocalypse?
Blood spilled for black gold
Will we be that desperate?

Five years from now
Will I know me?
Will I be somewhere?
Will I be with someone?
Will I look at this
And know who I was?

Homeless

Ever been alone?
(Ever been afraid?)
Ever been abandoned?
(Ever been alone?)
Have you
Ever seen
(Just)
Sunrise
(Just)
Sunset
Ever been alone?
(Ever been afraid?)
Ever been abandoned?
(Have you)
Ever seen
[Sunrise]
[Sunset]

Could you
Walk a mile
(Just a mile)
In my shoes?
Could we
Walk a mile
In their shoes?

(Can we breathe)
With their lungs?
(Can we see)
With their eyes?
(Can we bleed)
Like everyone (else?)

Tomrrow's a dream
(Just make it to morning)
Today's goodbye
(I hope you wake up)

Wake up

(Don't leave me)

Ever been alone?
(Ever been afraid?)
Ever been abandoned?
(Ever been alone?)
Have you
Ever seen
(Just)
Sunrise
(Just)
Sunset
Ever been alone?
(Ever been afraid?)
Ever been abandoned?
(Have you)
Ever seen
[Sunrise]
[Sunset]

[No home]
(No hope)
[No home]
(No hope)
[No home]
(No hope)
[No sympathy]

Ever been alone?
(They are alone)
Ever been afraid?
(They are afraid)
Ever been abandoned?
(They are abandoned)
[Sunrise]
[Sunset]

(Homeless)
[They are alone]
(Hopeless)
[They are abandoned]
Tomorrow
[They are afraid]
(Make it)
Please make it to morning

(Homeless)
[Sunrise]
(Hopeless)
[Sunset]
(Tomorrow)
[Abandoned]
I'm afraid

Failure (My Curtain Call)

Really
What was I expecting?
What was I thinking?
What was I hoping for?
I'm nothing more than this...

Such a bitter taste
In my mouth

Who am I
To blame
But myself?
More than this
Who am I?
Who should I
Be?
Where do I go from here?

Such a bitter taste
In my mouth

I don't need
Such a bitter taste
I don't need a past
Bitter regret
I don't need a future
Bitter farewell
I don't need today
Not today
I don't need today
Just a speck in time
I don't need today

Someone save me
Someone save me
I want to scream
But no one
Is
Listening

Someone save me
Someone save me
I
Want
To
Scream

Watch the curtain fall
This is my curtain fall
My certain fall

The story ends
I'm gone

I'm gone...

Hopeless

I'm a sucker for love

I keep reaching
Keep falling for it
Every single time

Feeling sentimental for someone
Who could care less

Yeah, I'm a fool
And no
I'll never be
Her hero

In her eyes
I'm just a shadow

She wouldn't know
She wouldn't care
She wouldn't know
She wouldn't care
She wouldn't know
She wouldn't care
She wouldn't know
She wouldn't care

I hope this fades
Burn away
I don't want this anymore
I don't want this
Feeling
Dragging me down
Pulling me down

Just watching
Just waiting
Just
Killing myself

And no
I could never tell her
Again
And yes
She's moved on
god I hate Myspace...

My Chance in Time

[This can't last]

Time is precious
Time is money
(They say)

[Forever]

Time is temporary
You're wasting my life
(With empty words)

[Let me breathe]
[Let me live]

(I)
Never had the chance to
[Breathe for myself]
(I)
Never had the chance to
[Live for myself]
(I)
Never had the chance to
[Breathe for myself]
(I)
Never had the chance to
[Live for myself]

Let me breathe
(Let me live)

You've wasted your time
(Stop trying to steal mine)
You've had your chance
[This is mine]

A chance
(In time)
My chance
(Mine)

Walking

You wouldn't notice me
Just another guy
Walking the same street
We're both heading to nowhere
It's not like we're blind
We just don't know
Where we're headed yet
We don't want to know
We don't want to leave
But this awkward silence
Should I say something?
No, it's better to just pass by
Keep walking
I don't know you
Not like you notice me
Just keep walking
In silence
Walking to nowhere
In silence

If She Only Knew

I wonder if one day
She would read these words
And realize what I wished
What I wanted
Up until the day
I finally move on from this
(But that's not today)
[Not tomorrow]

I wonder if she would feel anything
(From these words)
They're just ink on paper
[But they mean the world to me]
If she read these words
(Would she care?)
Would she hold onto them,
If only for a moment?
Would she read them,
Through and through?
Would she fly,
On these [broken],
(Ink-stained) wings,
Into a sunset,
I wrote,
(Only meant for her?)

(I wonder...)
If she wandered
The vastness of the internet
Would she stumble upon this?
[My passion]
Inspiration
(My life)
Would she recognize herself
Amongst my broken words?

[I might] (be) pathetic
[I might] (be) poetic
[I might] (just be) a dreamer
[I might] (just be) another

(But I can't help to wonder)
If she ever read these words
Would she find herself
Wrapped in my ink
Spilled just for her?

My Home (Nothing)

This is my home
Where nothing happens

This is where I grew up
Scared of the dark
I breathe to the silence of the streets

This is where nothing happens
The outside world
Doesn't infect me here
It can't reach me
No
Not here
Nothing

I could care less
About
Nothing

The silence is deadly
I choked on unspoken words
Nothing happened
Again

This is my home
Where I bleed the silence

This is where I fell in love
Broke my legs for her
This is where I screamed at the sky
And lost my voice

This is where I dreamed
Where I nightmared
The beginning
And the end

This is my home
Where nothing is precious

I would wish on the stars
But the bright night lights
Hide them from my vision

This is where I threw it away
Where I gave up
Cave in

I wanted something more
Than this
Something better

This is my home
Where I learned to cope
With my darkness

Where nothing happens

Freeway Flashes

Glimpses
Of places
Of people
And their lives
Where do we go from here?
Counting cars
Wondering
Where are we going?
Where are they going?
Feel the miles pile up
Gas is killing me
But I'm still wondering
How's their life?
Is it
Any better than mine?
Wanna trade?
My vision is blocked
By trees
By cement
I get only glimpses
How many lives has it been?
I'm just wondering
Is it any better?

The Melancholy of It All

Playing silent melodies
Marking my pain in pen

(But no)
You wouldn't care
(If I)
Crawled up a hole
And died
(Silently) silently

Thinking of silent memories
I'll erase what I don't want to hear
(But no)
You wouldn't care
(If I)
Crawled up a hole
And died
(Silently) silently

I've learned
(My worth)
It's less than dirt

There's no reason
(To breathe in)
Anymore

I'll die
(Silently) silently

How About Life for a TV Show?

[Too much]

[TV]

We're waiting for something
To happen
(Something amazing)
[Take our breath away]
We're just ordinary
(This is reality)

Wishing on shooting stars
(Have you ever found one?)

Wishing on shooting stars
(Have you ever found one?)

Dreaming our lives (away)
[We are alone]
Holding our pillows (tight)
[We are alive]
Crawling in our (skin)
[We are abandoned]
Falling for the
Whispers of the [wind]

Does she dream what I dream?
Does she feel what I feel?

[The lies we buy]
[The lies we swallow]
(Anything) for a little comfort
A little better

[We're flipping through the channels]
Looking for something to watch
We live for the (drama)
We want the [tragedy]

Wishing on shooting stars
(Have you ever found one?)

Wishing on shooting stars
(Have you ever found one?)

Dreaming our lives (away)
[We are alone]
Holding our pillows (tight)
[We are alive]
Crawling in our (skin)
[We are abandoned]
Falling for the
Whispers of the [wind]

Does she dream what I dream?
Does she feel what I feel?

[Dreaming]
[We keep on dreaming]
Isn't this nice?
[Dreaming]
[We keep on dreaming]
Isn't this nice?

Can we live our dreams?
Can I live my dream
(With her?)

Medicate Me

Give me the cure for loneliness
A prescription for panging regrets
Something for haunting memories
Medicate me
Something to pass the time
Something permanent
My life is silent
No voices for miles
I thought I heard an echo
But it's all in my mind
Give me a voice
Medicate me
Something for a heavy heart
It's dragging me down
Give me feathered wings to fly
A prescription for fear
Something to keep the grave away
Something for the pain
Medicate me
Something to fill the void

In a sea of shelves
I'll lose myself
Give me the cure to loneliness
Medicate me

Kill Me Now Regret

I wonder where you are
I wonder what time it is
I wonder who you're with

I wonder if you're happy
I hope you're happy
(It's all I can do)

It's killing me
Eating my insides
Regret is my grave
[Bury me]
(Maybe then I'll feel better)

You're haunting my sleep
After all this time
(Your dream won't fade)

I tore those pictures
Burned my letters
(I thought I) [buried you]

It's killing me
Eating my insides
Regret is my grave
[Bury me]
(Maybe then I'll feel better)

[And I want to scream
Into the night
Calling out your name]

(Bury me)
Bury me

(Bury me)
Bury me

[Maybe then I'll feel better]

It's killing me
Eating my insides
Regret is my grave
[Bury me]
(Maybe then I'll feel better)

Maybe then I'll feel better

Chasing Clocks

Are we chasing our pasts
Hoping to find a future?
Putting off the present
For time spent and
Yet to be had?
Are we living in the wrong moment
Drifting in the wrong era?
Are we chasing the hands of the clock
Hoping someday they will stop
And turn to our will?
Are we trying to control the uncontrollable
One of the few forces
That can't be had?
Are we living on clocks,
Breathing on gears,
And bleeding ticks and tocks?
Are we that broken
That we keep chasing
Our time around the clock
Hoping that this will stop?

Depressing Judgement

Why don't I just die now?
Maybe you'll be happy
I know I'm not perfect
But you insist the impossible
Sometimes
These things can't be helped
You don't know how much it hurts
When I try so hard
Only to fail in your eyes
You don't believe me
You won't believe me
Believe me
If I died now
I'd think you'd be smiling
Why don't I just cut myself
So you can laugh a little
Why don't I just bury myself
I'll go grab a shovel
I hate perfection
I think it's a serial killer
We die trying
Chasing something that doesn't exist
Chasing a dream
Chasing nothing
Maybe when I'm gone
You'll smile
Is that what it takes?
Why don't I just die?

Peace-Seeker

We are your silent unseen
Still bleeding
From your gunshots
And here we stand
Still standing
For something

We just want peace
Standing for peace
Just some peace

Lay down your arms
(Give me your hand)
We'll fade into the sunset

Lay down your arms
(Give me your hand)
We'll fade into the sunset

[Lay] Down (Your) [Life]
[Lay] Down (Your) [Life]
[Lay] Down (Your) [Life]
[Lay] Down (Your) [Life]

I never wanted this war
(Why do we keep fighting?)
Why are we fighting?
[I don't want to die]
(I can't kill him)
[I hate them]
(I think he's retarded)
Why are we in this mess?
(I miss him, so much)
Bring them home
[I can't take anymore]
(Is it over yet?)
Come back
(Come home)
[Bring them back]
I never wanted this
(I don't want to bury him)
[He's not dead!]
He can't be
[I don't believe you!]
Why are we still in this?
(I hate it)
[I hate him!]

Don't die...

Please...

Peace...

Music Wanted

(These words are)
About as musical
(As silence)
Gets
There's no beat
(No melody)
No insane guitar solo
(To keep)
You
(Listening)
Only my silent voice
(Singing)
In your head
(Singing in your head)
Read these words aloud
So I can steal
(Your voice)
I'll sound however
You imagine me
(Are you breathing in sync with me?)
Can you feel
(Our hearts beating?)
Are we breathing still?

(A silent voice)
Singing
(A silent voice)
Wishing
(A silent voice)
Pleading

I need some music...

...Pity...

...please excuse me drowning in self-pity...

I feel like I'm just watching
Watching every breath leave me
Watching life just pass me by
I watched her slip away
I watched everything fall apart
I'm still picking up the pieces
I'm still dropping the pieces
I can't grab a hold of it
It slips through my fingers
I want to go somewhere
Anywhere
But I have nowhere
No one
To hold
Nothing
I'm missing something
I can feel it
The emptiness
But where do I get it?
Where do I get mine?
Maybe it was a mistake
I guess I'm already dead
Someone just bury me

But I can't help but dream about it
Reaching for it
Blinding but I want it
I can't help falling for it
I can't help falling for her
I want it
Life

...sorry about that...

Cage

So go ahead and
Lock me away
In a 3 by 3 foot cell
[Here]
Build me some 7 foot walls
Cast 'em in iron
(So) [I can't escape]

Pad the walls
Pad the floor
[Pad the roof]
(I don't want to)
[Die]

Give me a single window
[To watch out]
To see outside of this
(See the outside)

I'm locked away
And you could care less
[I'm not alive]
Shallow hearts
Sharper words
[It hurts]
(They hurt)

Don't

Don't even speak
I don't want to hear it
Don't even breathe
I never wanted this
Never wanted this

You're silent
Mouthing words
I don't want to hear
But it still hurts
Like knives in my spine

How long did I think
I could keep this masquerade
Up?
I almost thought
It would last
Forever
What a fool I am
How foolish we are
Thinking we can stop time
And treasure a moment

You're leaving
Walking steps
Breath by breath
I never wanted this
Never wanted this

The rose fades
Petals blooming
Thorns intact
Bleeding me
You're bleeding me

Divide

We aren't so broken
Anymore
We've pulled ourselves
Together
But you insist
On tearing us apart
Keep us divided
So we can fall
Alone
(Alone)
Alone
(Alone)
Alone

We are this
You are that
Let's meet up in the end
And see
Who's happier then

I wonder if you're listening
(I wonder if you're listening)

Can you hear us?
(Can you hear us?)

You love it when
We're broken
So easily misplaced
Floating along
With the crowd
You go ahead
And lead us
Over the edge again
Falling for
No one
Falling for
Nothing

I hate it
You love it
(When we're a)[lone]
You love it when you see us
(By ourselves)
[Defenseless]
By ourselves
[Defensless]
(Pick us off)
One by one
Watch the others [fall]

Paranoid Feeling

I got this paranoid feeling (feeling)
Stuck in my head
And I can't seem to get it (to get it)
Out of my head (my head)
I got this [paranoid] feeling (feeling)
Stuck in my head (my head)
And I can't seem to get it [get it]
Out of my head (my head)

I think I'm paranoid
I know I'm paranoid
I think I'm paranoid
I know I'm paranoid

Head keeps turning
Looking over my shoulder
I'm pretty sure
Someone's following
Stalking my stairs
But I'll
Take it step by step (breath by breath)
Dreading the moment
When they make a move
And I'm thinking (helpless)

I think I'm [paranoid]
(I know I'm) [paranoid]
I think I'm [paranoid]
(I know I'm) [paranoid]

Closing every window
(And)Locking all the doors
I know they're out there waiting (waiting)
Waiting for their chance
But they'll never have it (have it)
Have it slip through my hands

I think I'm [paranoid]
(I know I'm) [paranoid]
I think I'm [paranoid]
(I know I'm) [paranoid]

Ink stained fingers
From a broken pen
Play this melody of letters
Try to distract them
Maybe then I can leave
Maybe then I can breathe (easy)
Maybe then I could
(Maybe then I could)
[Maybe then I could]

I got this paranoid feeling (feeling)
Stuck in my head
And I can't seem to get it (to get it)
Out of my head (my head)
I got this [paranoid] feeling (feeling)
Stuck in my head
And I can't seem to get it [get it]
Out of my head (my head)

Still Dreaming After All This Time

There's something I need you to know
(I'm still dreaming)
Hold me close
(Hold me tight)
Hold me until the end of night
(Help me make it to morning)

I'm still dreaming
(Dreaming about you)
Still dreaming
(Trying to hold you)

The taste of your subtle lips
(Eludes my own)
The touch of your skin
(Is just out of reach)
I hate it when scars keep bleeding
(Open wounds)
I hate when it's all downhill
(When the world is against you)

I'm still dreaming
(Dreaming about you)
Still dreaming
(Trying to hold you)

And I saw her face
When I was awake
My body stopped moving
My heartbeat
Raced
For her
Only for her

I'll let you in
On a secret
I'm still dreaming
(Dreaming about you)

I'll let in
On my secret
I'm still trying
(Trying to hold you)

(Hold me close)
(Hold me tight)
Help me make it to morning...

Happy Burning Grave

Are you happy now?

Are you happy now?

Congratulations
(I hate you)
Another heart
(Thrown away)
Tally another mark
Keeping score

Another night
(So cold)
I can grab my own
(Frozen breath)
Watch it melt in my hands
And slip through my fingers

Are you happy now?
(You've broken another
Heart!) Happy now?

[Do
You feel it
Burning
Burning inside
Burn you alive]

[Feed the flames
And watch
Everything
Burn
Down]

[Burn
Down
Burn]
(You burn!)
You burn!
(You burn!)

Lies in your eyes
(Oh, your eyes!)
How they stabbed me
(A dozen times)
Through the chest
Killing me

Such hideous beauty
(In your smile)
You'll fake a life
I hope
He breaks you
I hope he breaks you

Are you happy now?
(You've broken another
Heart!) Happy now?

All I have
Is this pen
And your
Slow demise
(Sealed in ink)
I'll ready your coffin
Dirt for your grave
Bury another heart

What's the score now?
[Burn!] (Happy now?)
Are you happy now?

No Sense of Direction

It's a lie
But I hold my prayer
I'm a runaway
I'm a runaway
It's a lie
But I hold my prayer
I'm a runaway
I'm a runaway

These people just keep staring at me
And you're still on my mind
I want to give it up
Give you up
Throw you away
But I like it
So I'll keep you
Hold you close
Right here

It's a lie
But I hold my prayer
I'm a runaway
I'm a runaway
It's a lie
But I hold my prayer
I'm a runaway
I'm a runaway

In my eyes
These streets were never colder
Than tonight
I don't really want to go
But I don't really care
There's nothing left for me here
I hate it when my
Feet start moving before my mind

I'm a runaway
I'm a runaway

These words make no sense
I write about you tonight
And what I said to you
You think I'm normal
But I know I'm not
Because I love before I lie

Breathing Poison

There is only dirt
Where
You sleep
(Dirt where you sleep)
Hearts were meant
To be broken
(Smash them to pieces)
No one fears
Just
What we breathe
(This isn't happening)
No one fears
The lies
We
Swallow
(Just take it all in)
Take it all in

And you won't say a word
(Take it all in)
Take it all in
They won't say
Anything
But I ain't
Silence

Scream for a hero
(Scream for tomorrow)
Holding on
To fleeting hope
(Faded dreams)
Wear out my lungs
(Breathe)
In
The poison
Feel it
Rush through your veins
Again

You Don't Want to Know/Be Me

You don't want to know me
You don't want to be me
Someone going through the motions
Someone just living in a moment
Dreaming of something better
A nightmare of something worse
You don't want to know me
A poet at a loss for words
These pages filled with words
The ink bleeds through
And they all rip
Torn by the slightest touch
I could put them back together
But what's the point
The wind only blows them to pieces again
You don't want to be me
A writer with nowhere to go
Nothing worth writing
You don't want to be me
Someone who knows
He's going to die someday
Someone who sees darkness
In his death
Someone who's dreamed
His own funeral
Buried alive
Screaming
You don't want to see me
Dead eyes staring
Back at you
Can you see your reflection?
Do you hate your reflection?
I hate mine
Broke a mirror
How many years left?
I swear my heart was glass
Broken to pieces
Shards in my chest
Cutting
Bleeding
Tearing
Piercing
You can't fix it
Not without bleeding hands
Even then it's impossible
The pieces are too small
She crushed them to dust
And swept them away
There's nothing there
Anymore
Just an empty space
A void
No
You don't want to know me
You don't want to be me

Prevent Your Murder-Suicide

You took the knife
Bleeding blade of lies
It was so cold
To the touch
They were so cold
It was cold outside
Night

And it kills me inside
When you say "I want to die"
And it kills me inside
When you want to die

Take life
One breath at a time
Breath by breath
You're still breathing
Just keep breathing
Your heart's still beating
Beating with life

For every up
There's a down
For every down
There's an up
Just hold on
For the up
It's coming soon
Just hold on
A little longer
Just a little longer

I don't want to see you cry
I don't want to see you bleed
I don't want to see you die
I don't want to see you die
You'd be killing me
Killing me

Killing me

Just hold on
A little longer

All Is Silent

There's no rush

There's no need

No one's
Listening

Slow down or just
Fade away

They're gone
Now
You're done
Now
It's
Over
Now

There's no rush

There's no need

No one's
Listening

I can only hope
(That it gets better)
I can only dream
(That it gets better)
I can only wish
(Upon a star)
Tonight

I can only hope
(That it gets better)
I can only dream
(That it gets better)
I can only wish
(Upon a star)
Tonight

Hello?
(Hello?)
Hello?
(Hello?)

Is anybody out there?

Hello?
(Hello?)
Hello?
(Hello?)

Is anyone out there?

Hello?
(Hello?)
Hello?
(Hello?)
Hello?
(Hello?)
Hello?
(Hello?)
Hello?
(Hello?)

'Cause all
I hear
Is silence

...

'Cause all
I hear
Is silent

...

Anthem

So come on!

Let's all just sing along
Sing an anthem
To die for!

Shed some blood!
Shed some blood!
Shed some blood tonight

Hold nothing back!
Hold nothing back!
Throw away your fears

And this is
What you've been waiting for
Waiting all your life for
Something worth dying for
Something to die for
Something to die for

March on!
March on!
Forward!

No mercy!
No mercy!
No mercy for them
No mercy!
No mercy!
Frozen hearts

Ready!
Aim!
Fire!

Ready!
Aim!
Fire!

Fire!

An anthem
To die for...

New Day (Maybe)

I want a world that doesn't bleed
I want a voice that doesn't have to scream

Can you hear it?
Do you get the feeling?

I never asked for these scars
Never wanted these nightmares for memories

Who wants to wake up falling?
Who wants to dream of nothing?

I can't take it
Stop staring
Stop judging
Just stop breathing

I'm no different
I"m far from normal
I'm not different
I'm so far away

Do you feel it?
Coming on
And on
And on
And on
And on

Broken-hearted
Trampled under
Foot
A face you'll never know
Am I running from myself?

Running in circles
Circles again
A pair of eyes to see
Bloodshot

Can you feel the anxiety?

I don't wanna go
I want to go
I don't wanna go
I want to go

Sometimes I wish
For them to just
Take me away

Sometimes I wish
For the new day
To come

I don't know anymore...

Deprived

There is no Inspiration here
She left a while ago
Just gathered her wings
And flew away
I lost her in the sun
My eyes hurt
My words feel dry
I think she stole some of my ink
At least my heart doesn't ache
The wound
Is a scar
But I don't think it will fade
I've been sleeping on my story
And wondering where to turn it next
I got music blasting
Division Street
Thursday
Pretty good
Amazing I can't find her in it

Helpless

We say anything we want
Whatever comes to mind
You can speak
Until your voice is gone
Until your lungs collapse
But reality is crushing
You can all you want
But words only do so much
Dreams only get you so far
The fact is
She's halfway
Across the world
And I can't do shit
To help her
I can't be there
To hold her hand
I can't be there
To hear every breath
To cherish every breath
All I can do
Is write
And speak
Scream until my lungs fail me
All I can do is hope
For the best
Fuck...
It's helpless...

Addiction

I'll admit it
I'm addicted to writing
I can't seem to put this pen down
It's running out of ink
Going dry
I think I'm running out of paper
Down to my last sheet actually
But my mind won't stop racing
Word by word
Sentences form
Inspiration born
I'm determined to finish this
I don't want it to die
I want to finish this
Drawing from inspiration
I'll leave it all on paper

http://ink-dragonraid.blogspot.com/

possibilities never had

Outside of closed windows
As I try to scream for her
I'm scared to death

Every single word
She spoke to me
I have written
Within
The pages of my heart
My heart

The possibilities are endless
What could have been
Will never be
Simply because
I said so

Hate Isn't a Strong Enough Word

You buried my passion
I buried your body
You ripped out my heart
I tore out your lungs
I drilled
This letter
You wrote me
To the head
Of your tombstone
I shoved these thorns
With roses
Down the throat
Of your grave

(Die!)
Die!
(Die!)
Die!
(Die!)
Die!

No one can save you now
No one will save you now
I'll make sure of it
You won't breathe again
I won't let you breathe again

You broke my heart
I broke your neck
You cried a lie
I made you bleed true
I would have
Buried you alive
So you could suffer
But
Turns out you don't last long
Without your lungs
Without your lies

Hate doesn't begin to describe
This
My knife will drop again
Your blood will bleed again
No
Hate doesn't even begin
To describe it

Not Sure N E More

I slip away
When I hold your hand
I've learned the pain
Of holding on

Too long

Too far

Why don't you

Tell me everything
I need
To know
Give me a guide
To a life
That no one
Will ever know
Throw me a lifeline
So I can
Pull myself ashore
I'm not sure
I'm not sure anymore

Holding on
(Too long)
I slip away
(Too far)
There's nothing left
(I'm gone)
I've had enough

I don't know what to say
(To you)
Anymore

Price to Pay to Play

What's the price
To play the game?
Take my heart
My soul
My voice
Take my mouth
My eyes
My ears
Have I paid
The price to play?
It's all we want
To win this game
But everything
Still feels the same
We've lost our turns
And now we wait
For the game
To end its way
Where will we be?
What will we do?
Who will speak?
Is this
The price to play?
Take all of me
My humanity
Dress me in plastic
And hand me
A set of lies
To abide
Another scapegoat
To feast upon
I can finally play
Play this sick and twisted game
Don't you want to play with me?
Don't you want to play the game?
Do you know the price to pay?
What's the price to play the game?

Naturally Imperfect

Maybe it is my nature
To scream
Maybe it is my nature
To bleed
Maybe I'm something other than perfection
Something that scares you to death
You see my flaws as daggers at your throat
And I'm not bothered a bit
By that idea
A tower I see you
Before me
I find my hand on the cornerstone
And watch you crumble
You thought you held the sky
But don't you see?
The sky looks down on you
Pity
Shame
Maybe it's life
That has got a chokehold on you
Putting you on the verge of living
In a reality
But no
You insist on dying
Insist on the grave
Anything but an apartment
Anything but a life
Maybe it's perfection that's weak
It's relient on flaws
To make IT perfect

Tired Line

I am

Tired

Of the lies
Bruised and bloodied
Eyes to see

I am

Tired

Of this life
Too many broken
Hearts to breathe

(Breathe again)

Make these scars
Memories
Made of ink

Have your arms
Bury my
Heart again

Flatline
(Don't) Flatline

Leave me gasping
So I can breathe

Have me silent
So I can speak

Raise me up
A fool
For all to see

All I Want Is Fire

I got a box of matches
Under my teeth
Waiting for this to blow
Waiting for us to blow
We're all gonna blow

I can't wait
To set me on fire
Burn this pain away
I can't wait to burn away
My sight
So I can't see the lies
Can't see the lies anymore
Can't wait to see the true
True beauty

So come on
Give me a blaze to revel in
Self-inflicted
Blinded eyes
Bury me burning
Bury me smoldering
To ashes
Again and again
Turn the shovel over

There's nothing more I want
Nothing else to ask for

Strike the match
Start the fire
Self-inflicted blinded eyes
To see true beauty
Not see the lies anymore
Bury me burning
Turn the shovel over

Thinking

I wonder if this is all worth it
Writing to complete strangers
Maybe it's just an incontrolable
Compulsion to write
I really can't help it
Sure I could write on paper
But that eventually withers away
I don't want these words to fade
But then again
I don't want them collecting dust
If you ask for my self-portrait
I'll paint it in ink
With these words
Words that will last until I say so
Word that will last
Forever
I think it's worth it

Suicidal Symphony

I'm waiting for disaster
Forget it
Take me to the slaughter
I want to fall
Faster
Give me the darkness
Because I can't stand the light

Play me a suicidal symphony
Make music with a razorblade
Sing me a suicidal memory
Make some scars bleed

They don't know darkness
They won't know darkness
They can't know darkness

Give me some
Screaming demons
Drown out the sirens
The useless talk
You're wasting my time
You're wasting my life
Ever bleed in a shadow?

Play me a suicidal symphony
Make some music with a razorblade
Sing me a suicidal memory
Make some scars bleed
Make me bleed with a symphony

SinR

Sin is my middle name
Lust is too addicting
Should be a drug
Wrath is in every breath
Every step
Every heartbeat
Pride and Envy
Go hand in hand
You can't be better than me
I won't let you be better than me
I want Greed
I want it
And I want it now
There's nothing like
Sloth and Gluttony
To waste your time away
Waste your life away
Throw your life away
I am sin

Magician

With ink-stained words
I'll fool reality
I'm not who you think
I'm not what I seem
This pen is my
Magic wand
I'll pull a rabbit
From this paper
Hold your applause
The best is yet to come
One swipe
And a word dies
Isn't that amazing?
Isn't that amazing?
Just cover it up
With ink
All I need is ink
All I need is ink

In A Breath

All you gotta do to live
Is breathe
In
Just breathe
Out
It's not complicated
Why do we complicate it?
Why do you complicate it?
Just breathe
In
Just breathe
Out
There's nothing more to this
This
Is
All we have left
Just breathe
To live

A Broken Record

I should clean this pen
Probably this paper too
Too much dust on these words
They've all been said before
So no one wants to listen
In fact
No one
Wants to hear them anymore
They're like a broken record
We're like a broken record
Keep making the same mistakes
Over and over again

I'll play you
This broken record
May not like it
But you're going to hear it
I'll heal your
Self-inflicted
Blinded eyes
I'll hold your head straight
So you can't look away
See it
For what it is
Throw away your lies

We don't even dream anymore
Just work our lives for
Some blood money
Too concerned with
Our bright lights
Can you live in the dark?
Could we live in the dark?

I'll play you
This broken record
You may not like it
But you're going to hear it
I'll heal your
Self-inflicted
Blinded eyes
I'll hold your head straight
So you can't look away
See it
For what it is
Throw away your lies

And when we die
We'll be forgotten
They'll build
Over our graves
But we still got life
And I'm going to play
This broken record so loud
They'll be cracks in the floor

Maybe it's the truth
We can't
See
Maybe it's the lies
We
Want
Maybe it's the truth
We can't
See
Maybe it's the lies
We
Want

An Autobiography

Soft spoken
Harsh written
Silently
Screaming
Never was rich
Never was poor
Bled
Because nothing
Was just handed to me
Lied to
Lied
Far from
Perfect
Secrets closer
Than my heart
You will never know
Waking up falling
Dreaming
Wishing for something better
Hoping there's something
More to this
More than this
Anywhere but here
A shadow for reflection
Heart broken
Heart breaking
Shameful
Shameless
A failure to them
But I can only be
Myself

Dismal

Paradise lost!
Paradise lost!
Can you feel
The gates closing?
The darkness
Creeps closer
I can't see!
I can't see!
Vengeance left me
One
Eye
Blind
Open the gate!
Open the gate!
I can hear their screams
Demons calling us
To the grave
This can't be happening!
No!

We fell from clear skies...

We fell from clear skies...

Paradise
Lost
I don't
Want to
Die
Not here
No
Not here

Your Memory

I wonder
When I fade
Will I be remembered?
Can I be a memory?
Can I be your memory?
Keep it close
I'll be that much closer
(That much closer)
I never wanted this
I never meant to hurt you
Don't cry
Please
Tears won't save me now
Can I be your memory?
Keep me that much closer

Break Some Glass

Tear down
The mirrors
From the walls
Maybe
Then
We can look
At ourselves
For what we are
No one lives your life
For you
Gotta live it yourself
Therein lies your strength
No one can bring you down
But yourself
Don't let them
Think for you
Don't let them
Breathe for you
Don't let them
Live for you
They can't live
Your life
For you
Gotta live it yourself
Break some glass

All in Ink

Hesitation
That's the story
Of my life
In one word
Hesitating
Missing chances
Letting go
Wishing
Wanting
Waiting
Dreaming
Hoping
Killing myself
Doing nothing
Reluctant
I don't see a future
Not in this darkness
Uncertain
All I see
Are blank pages
In a book
Called my heart
The ink is ready
The pen's in my hand
But I'm still waiting
Someone guide me
Someone find me
I'm here
Still waiting

no longer

I WILL SCREAM
AND KEEP SCREAMING
UNTIL MY VOICE
GROWS HOARSE
AS LONG AS I CAN SPEAK
AS LONG AS I CAN BREATHE
I WILL SCREAM
LET THIS PAIN BE HEARD

Do you know what it means
To hurt?
Your heart is crushed
By the world

PAIN IS UNIVERSAL
PAIN IS UNIVERSAL
BUT THEY DON'T KNOW
NO THEY DON'T KNOW
THE FEELING

Do you get the feeling
That something
Isn't right?
How can she be so far
When she's so close
To my touch?
The world plays games
With you
And you want it so bad
So bad to sell yourself

LET THIS PAIN
BE HEARD
TO THE WORLD
KNOW WHAT IT MEANS
TO HURT

Nobody cares for feeling
(I'm not like that anymore)
Nobody else is breathing
(My heartbeat stopped long ago)

NO LONGER SILENT
NO LONGER SILENT

Last Ride

So close your eyes
You don't want to see tonight
Say your goodbyes
This will be
Our last ride

Over the edge
We've gone too far
There's no turning back
Turn the wheel
Push the pedal to the floor
In flashing lights
We'll crash and burn

Hold on tight
My darling
I've been ready
To say goodbye
For far too long
You're a teaser you know?
This
Is
The
End

Rage

There's something
About the blaze
That scares the
Life out of you
How far can you go?
How far will you go?
Once it starts...
Is it wildfire?
Does it burn out
And turn to ashes?
Is the match in your hand
Or another's?
Who's to blame?
Is is wrong?
Is it right?
Do you know the meaning?
They preach self-control
They don't know the blaze
Can't hold it back
Let it burn out

A Tittle is Too Depressing

I never thought we were innocent
I know we're not innocent
We judge others
We condemn ourselves
We want to live on the edge
But we're afraid of razorblades
We're scared to death
Of life
We want to scream
But don't want to be heard
Here I am
Don't look
We dream
And keep dreaming
Wishing on
Foresaken stars
No one wants to be us
We don't want to be us
We want to save others
But we can't save ourselves
We're trying to fly
With one wing
The days are long
And the nights are longer
There's too much time
To think to ourselves
To think of ourselves

Give Me

People don't change
They only fade
Away
The screams aren't silent
We just don't want to listen
We are afraid
Of the truth
Tell me some lies
Anything
Give me ignorant bliss
I don't want to know
How it's made
Just give it to me
We sleep
With one eye open
Can't trust them
Can't trust ourselves

If You Didn't Know...

First story at Ink is underway. Looking for readers and appreciate comments/critiques.

Tagged by Vyolet (and unofficially Pete)

Never been tagged before.

The rules
1. Pick up the nearest book.
2. Open to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the next three sentences.
5. Tag five people


"At the last moment I will enclose the MS. in a bottle, and cast it withing the sea. An incident has occurred which has given me new room for meditation. Are such things the operation of ungoverned chance? I had ventured upon deck and thrown myself down, without attracting any notice, among a pile of ratlin-sutff and old sails, in the bottom of the yawl."
- The Complete Tales and Poems of Edgar Allan Poe

"At the end of the fighting all those who had fallen miraculouly rose, and in the evening they all sat together again: eating, drinking, and carousing. The warriors ate the meat of a boar named Saehrimnir, which was cooked each day in the pot Eldhrimnir by the cook Andhrimnir. Saehrimnir's flesh would always be sufficient to feed the Einherjar, regardless of their number, and each morning it was whole again, ready to be cooked for the next day. the Einherjar's drink was an endless supply of mead produced by a goat named Heidrun who, each day, filled a vat big enough for all to drink their fill"
- Minipedia: World Mythology



Sorry to disappoint, but I don't read a lot of books. Most of what I read is in a magazine or sometimes, the newspaper.

Now for the tagging part:
1. Jeff at Empty Canvas
2. Noelia at pink flower on my wall
3. Iwalktheline at From a Softhearted Hardhead...
4. Arielle Harris at A Vampire Trilogy
5. Heatherreloise at Holiday From Real

i don't know how to put links in posts, but they're all in my link lists.

Politics

Is this what we're really looking for?
The pain of losing her son
At war
Are these mistakes
Really all that minimal?
Can you honestly say
You wouldn't change a thing?

Do you know the nation?
Mr. President
Do
You
Know
Me?

No you don't know me

They are illegal
The aliens you hate
But do you really think
Citizens would take their jobs
Willingly
They work hours upon hours
For lower than minimum wage
Just for a better life
What's so wrong with that?
It's not like
You want
Their jobs
Or their pay

Do you know the nation?
Mr. President
High atop your tower
Where the sun blinds your eyes
A fancy mansion
Sitting an office
Built for two
Or three

No
You don't know me

What good is a democracy
Where the majority suffers
And the rich just watch and laugh?

Until I Die

I wish I could speak
I wish I could breathe
I wish I could
Sing you a song
You could never forget
My dear

I wish I had talent
I wish I had potential
I wish I could
Make this guitar
Strum its strings
In perfect melody
For you

But if all I can do is write
Then I'll write
Until the day I die

Until I die...

Sitting here
4 a.m.
The world lays silent
Save for my pen
Dancing on paper for you

I wish life was simple
I wish this was easy
I wish I could
Take all your pain away

I'm not perfect
We'll never be perfect
But I hope we'll both find
Someone
Someday

And if all I can do is write
Then I'll write
Until the day I die

Until I die...

The sun isn't up just yet
The world still sleeps
Ink as black as your eyes
Maybe I can see your face
If I stare long enough

Until I die
I'll keep writing

Mystery

Ever written
Something
And didn't
Know what it meant
The words just came to me
There is no reasoning
To this ink
Set in paper

"Pale blue
Seeps through
Drips into my veins"

I've been tearing
At my mind
At my heart
Searching for a reason
Some explanation
But to no avail
It's still a mystery
And there's another

"Daggers fall from crimson skies"

The words make no sense
To me
Can you figure them out?
Now's your chance to be a detective...

Are We Afraid?

There's gotta be a mistake
Gotta be a typo
Ten million deaths
This can't be real...
Lies!

Afraid of the truth

We live in boxes
Chain us down
Rules for reason
Safe, routine living...
Wake up! And live already!

Afraid of ourselves

An earthquake could come
Wildfire spreading
What if another tsunami?
The sky is falling...
Take a risk!

Afraid of the world

What are we afraid of?
What are we waiting for?
The moment won't last forever
Make tomorrow today
Let it out!




Are you afraid?

Burning Eyes

With broken wings
And broken arms
I'll carry you
To a different place

Spilling ink on paper
My heart will race for you
Try to keep in pace
Keep in pace

My head's spinning
My head's spinning
Colors
Blind
The eyes
Whisper words in my ear
I can't hear you
I can't hear you screaming

Spilling all the ink I have
My heart races for you
Try to keep in pace
Keep in pace

I know
You see
Through this wall of lies
I've built
From the ground up
Protect myself
I see your eyes
Staring
Staring at mine
I see your eyes
Burning holes in mine
I see your eyes
Burning holes in mine

Broken
Ink-stained wings
Are all I have

Seventeen For Me

Trying to find myself
But I'm still lost
Even more than before
Dreaming of better
Because reality is depressing
Just pieced together my heart
New scars for the world to see
Treading on thin ice
Threatened with a changing blaze
It grows
It dies
Reaching for something
With fragile hands
Living in a past breath
Hoping for the next
Thinking love is a lie
Only to believe it again
Finding something new to hold closer
A new anthem to celebrate
Searching
For a someone
Because my heart's a fool
And I'm following it
I still prefer the night
The darkness creeps closer
Shelter in a dragon's wings
A little less of a shadow
More of another soul

Three Years and This is it?

Three years I've wasted away
Waiting
Three years gone
Long gone
Nothing's changed
I'm still the same
Confused
Twisted
Mad at the world
Depressed
Sadistic
Lost in myself

They keep preaching the same damn thing to me
I've heard it all before
They just keep adding the chains
Keep binding me
There is no place to escape
No place to just release

Next year is nothing different
But for some reason
I keep hoping
Foolish heart
Don't you know
Love is a lie?

Tomorrow Never Came

We are the voices..........screaming!
We are the broken..........hearts!
We are the blood,
On your hands..........bleed to death!

I hope you bleed to death!

We are
The dirt
Beneath
Your fingernails
You try
To scrape
Away
Our pain

We shout!
We will scream!

Living in the moment...
(Living to breathe)
Hoping for the next...
(Breathing to live)
Living in the moment...
Hoping for the next....

Tomorrow never came...

We are the voices..........screaming!
We are the broken..........hearts!
We are the blood
On your hands..........bleed to death!

Ever felt like screaming!?
Ever wanted to bleed?
Ever felt like screaming!?
Ever wanted to bleed?

We are the blood
On your hands
The dirt
Beneath
Your fingernails
Try to scrape us away
Try to scrape us away

You can bury us
Even burn us to ashes
You can bury this
Even burn it to ashes

But what would they think?
What would they do?

And we will scream!
Tomorrow never came
Tomorrow never came
Tomorrow never came!

Just a Memory

Dear
Memory of mine
Your eyes
Are so piercing
Piercing my
Piece my heart together
Piece my heart together
But where's the picture?
Guide these fragile hands
I keep dropping it
I keep breaking it
I keep dropping it
I keep breaking it
When will I learn?
Precious
Memory of mine
Your smile has faded
Joy lost
Sadness found
Despair drowned
You
I search for you
In rivers
In oceans
I search for you
My dear
Precious
Memory

Voice

Remember the time you cried
On the inside?
How you forced a smile
To be ignored?
Oh how my eyes bled
At the sight of
Their
Tongues
Tied

Sing me something soft
Something soothing
Something calm
Scream me something harsh
Something true
Something raw

Remember the time you collapsed?
No one around
To save you
Pick yourself up
Oh how I wished for the day to end
Already
Hurry it up
I'm done with this
I'm done with this

Sing me something soft
Something soothing
Something calm
Scream me something harsh
Something true
Something raw

Choose your voice
I'm listening
Li
Sten
Ing
I'm listening

Scream me something soft
Sing me something raw

Awoken

I nightmared
My own funeral
And the words
Spoken
Here lies a boy
Who dreamed dreams
But never lived
Here lies a man
Who only saw
One side of the hill
A dreamer crushed by reality
Broken ribs
Broken heart
I woke up
With the taste of dirt in my mouth

Alive

It's been
Far
Too
Long

Are you alright?
(Are you alive?)
Are your lungs still
Breathing?
Is your heart
Still
Beating with mine?
Are you alright?
(Are you alive?)
Are you alive
E
I
E
I

Please tell me it's better
(Don't tell me it's worse)
Please tell me it's better
(Don't tell me it's worse)
Please tell me it's better
(Don't tell me it's worse)
Please tell me it's better

I hope you're feeling
O
K
I hope you're feeling
O
K
I hope you're feeling
O
K

It's been
Far
Too
Long

Are you alright?
(Please tell me it's better)
Are you alive?
(Don't tell me it's worse)
Are your lungs still breathing?
(I hope you're feeling)
Is your heart still
(OK)
Beating with mine?
Are you alright?
(Are you alive?)
Are you alive?
(Are you alive?)

Cloud

Rain
Rain
Go away
And never come back
As if I need a reminder
As if I need a reminder
Sorrow born
Flames scorned

Isolate

That morning never was
The last drips of dew
Fell off each blade of grass
As we marched to the grave
Please
Won't you choke on your words
So I can have my silence
Leave me alone
This pain is mine to bear

They buried her body
But I got some life in me
Still got some life in me

Go away
Just
Go away
I don't need you here
Don't want you here
Your words are the dirt in the grave
Worth nothing
Become nothing

They buried her body
But I got some life in me
Still got some life in me
I'll do this alone
Somehow
Someway
Someday

Sense of Urgency

Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!

Wake up!
Sound the alarm
Wake up!
Sound the alarm

Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!
Wake up!

Wake up!
Sound the alarm
Wake up!
Sound the alarm

Don't let them see you
Don't let them hear you
Don't let them catch you

Don't let them see you
Don't let them hear you
Don't let them catch you

Come on
Come on
Run!
Come on
Come on
Run!
Come on
Come on
Run!

Stay awake
Just a little farther...
Stay awake
Just a little farther...

Watch out!
Take cover!




Stay with me
Come on
Stay with me
Don't you dare die on me
Don't you dare die on me
Please...

Just a Thought

Life takes many twists and turns
Time changes everything
The choices are ours to make, to control
Memories are there to reflect and remember better times
or regret and do our best never to repeat the same mistakes
Words are insights into a person
and even if we stop breathing
they'll keep on living

Perfect is a Lie

I used to believe
There was such a thing
As perfect
In this world
We breathe

But I've spit a thousand lies before
I've swallowed a million lies before
I've tasted
Bitter failure
And it lingered
In my mouth
Nothing flattering
Nothing perfect

Perfect doesn't scar
Perfect doesn't scream
Perfect doesn't bleed
Nothing perfect about me

And the world's so twisted
That bad means good
And honesty has lost meaning
The truth is bent so far
And lies became so easy
Something's wrong
But we don't care

Perfect doesn't lie
Perfect doesn't kill
Perfect doesn't live
Nothing perfect here

Ever Told You

Did I ever tell you?
I live in a shadow
I bleed for mine
Did I ever tell you?
I find my voice in ink
I find my thoughts in paper
Did I ever tell you?
I have to scream to be heard
I have to hope to dream
Did I ever tell you?
I've slept awake
I've woken up falling
Did I ever tell you?

Not for the Faint-Hearted

They will take their words
And shove them down your throat
Point a gun to your head
And you can't help but swallow
They will slap you across the face
Knock you to the floor
For good measure
You could pick yourself up
But you'll just be kicked down again
So you just lay there
Staring at the ceiling

Soon you're standing in line
Walking in circles
Living a routine
Then that guy in front
Has had enough
He charges them
And they drop him dead
They take his corpse
And made a symbol
A demonstration
And the flies feast on his
Rotting eyes
The sickness creeps up your throat

Pretty soon you lose hope
You stop caring
Everything is the same damn thing
Another day
Another death
And you know
No one will bother
To save you

I can't believe this happened
I can't believe this is happening

Screaming and Bleeding

Scream me a lullaby
Bleed me some tears tonight

My only wish
Was to make you proud
So I tried and I tried and tried
But you never looked
You never saw
You never cared
For me
You never cared

Scream a lullaby
Bleed me some tears tonight
Because I'm ready to go
Willing to go

My only wish
Was to make you proud
But you never cared for me
You never cared
You never cared for me
You never cared
I'll find my own way
Home
Somewhere I belong
I'll find my place
My home

The past is the past
And we'll never get it back
But you persist
So I insist
Scream me a lullaby
Bleed me some tears tonight

And as the sky's falling down
My hopes are broken
Dreams are only dreams
I'll walk this road alone
Scream at the top of my lungs
Until my voice is gone
Bleed until my pain is gone
Until I feel better
Until I feel better

Nothing's going to bring me back
The past is the past
Trying to make up lost time
You're way too late
But you persist
So I insist
Scream me a lullaby
Bleed me some tears tonight

My only wish
Tonight
Was to make you proud
But you never cared for me
Never cared for me
I'll find someplace
Where I belong
Scream at the top of my lungs
Bleed and feel better
Someday

I'll feel better

Some day

Some night

Maybe tonight

Dream

If this is a dream
Don't wake me up
I like it here
It's easy to breathe
And for once
I'm not choking
On words unspoken

This has got to be a dream
Because I'm not bleeding
I think I'm sane
My heart's in one piece

Don't wake me up
Not yet
Just a little longer
I like it here
Nothing's trying to kill me
No one's trying to kill me
Everyone's so
Content

This is a dream
Don't wake me up
Because reality sucks
I'd rather stay here
Don't wake me up
Not yet
Just a little longer...

Been Forever

How did it get like this?
We haven't talked
In what feels like forever
I've even forgotten
The sound of your voice
My meories recede
And these pictures lose meaning
Do you even smile anymore?
I called
But you never answered
I wrote
But you never wrote back
If this is dead
Then let these words
Be the gravestone
"Here lies another loss"

Losing It

The shadows are moving
Trying to kill me
The walls are inching
Closer and closer
The shadows are talking
Planning something
The door is trying to stifle a laugh
The shadows are stalking
Haunting my every step
I can't seem to lose them
The sky is falling
The ground is falling
We all fall down
Bodies buried
Angels fallen
Shadows lurking

They think I'm fine
They say I'm fine
They swear I'm fine
But the shadows stand behind them
I think otherwise

The shadows are staring
Waiting for something
I'm holding every breath
Like it's my last
Hoping for the next second
The next heartbeat
Seconds are an eternity
The shadows creep closer
And closer
And closer
And all I can do is scream

Weird

Is it weird
That her words feel
Like a noose around my neck
And I'm teetering
On the edge of a chair?

Is it weird
That I think she
Looks better dead?
Maybe then I can smile

Is it weird
That I fall asleep
And wake up falling?
I don't know what's going on

Is it weird
That everything I see
Is in flames?
Smoke and ashes
Pave the way

Is it weird
That I walk in shadows?
I scream in silence
No one will notice...

Unknown

I am the scream in the silence
The voice you'll never hear
I am the smile in despair
The face you'll never know
I am the person you just pass by
A whisper in the wind

Fly Away

You wanted to
So I told you to
Now we run in circles

It didn't take long for us to drift away and drown
In the sound
And it
Didn't take long for us to run away
Leave this town to die tonight
We want
Something new
To
Do

And you wanted to fly away
Find something else
Find something new
So I told you to spread your wings
Open your eyes
Come with me
And
Fly
Away

The past is the past
And we're never looking back
Until
We find what we want
Our sight is set
On the future
What tomorrow brings

And you wanted to fly away
Find something else
Find something new
So I told you to spread your wings
Open your eyes
Come with me
And
Fly
Away

We soar through the sky
Dance in the clouds
Bask in the sun
Try to touch the stars

But they found a way
To take us down
They clipped our wings
In a shower of feathers
But we're still searching
We'll keep searching

I can fly without wings
Just
Cling
To the dream
You can fly without wings
Just
Cling
To the dream
We can fly without wings
Just
Cling
To the dream

And you wanted to fly away
Find something else
Find something new
So I told you to spread your wings
Open your eyes
Come with me
And
Fly
Away

You wanted to fly away
(We can fly without wings)
So I told you to spread your wings
(Just, cling, to the dream)
They clipped them feather by feather
(We can fly without wings)
Now we run in circles
Searching for something new

You wanted to fly away
Just
Cling
To the dream
Fly away
Fly away
Today
(Tonight)

Leave It to Imagination

Have you ever been mad at yourself?
Ever hated the whole world
Just because?

Have you ever wanted to...?
Ever wanted to...?

Have you ever seen your dreams just collapse?
Ever had your hopes crushed to dust?
Have you ever wanted to...?

Ever been fed nothing but lies?
Only to find
Nothing's what it was
Nothing's what it seems

Have you ever woken up
With the taste of failure
In your mouth?

Have you ever just wanted to bleed?
Have you ever closed your eyes
Shut tight
So you wouldn't see?

Have you ever wanted to...?
Ever wanted to...?

Transition

I wish I could sing
Like an angel
But I'm a demon
I wish I could play
An instrument
But I'm too lazy
The learning curve is high
Maybe
It's too late
But I know
What I want to say

Scar to story to song

She was my one
My only
But she left me
They made me believe
I could do anything
But I watched it all
Fall
With me
Crash and burn
Rise from the ashes

Scar to story
Scar to story
Story to song
Story to song

Scream
At the top of your lungs
We can take those words
And make lyrics
So scream
At the top of your lungs
We can take those words
And make some lyrics
For a song

Pain to message
Pain to message

Scar to story
Scar to story
Story to song
Story to song

Transition
The transition
Transition
The transition

Cupid Spared Me No Arrow

Another day
Without you
An ordinary day
In February
Another night
Without you
Words written
For you

Valentine
Valentine
Will you be my
Valentine?
Valentine

More roses
For the lovers
Kisses and hugs
My roses
Are withered
Waiting too long
For you
How much longer?
For you

Valentine
Valentine
Will you be mine?
Valentine
Valentine

Sorry to say
This is the last day
I'll wait
I have to move on
With my life
Another page
In this story
Another girl
Left behind
Another love lost

Goodbye
Valentine
Goodbye
Valentine

My Method to Writing

Words just seem to string together in my mind
They form phrases that I like
The trigger to my inspiration is always different
Something I hear
Something I see
That's the moment I write the best
I think
My goal is to reflect emotions
The things everyone knows
Maybe oepn your eyes to something new
As for the way I write it
The style
Prose is always good
But I tend to rhyme
Sometimes I'm not even aware of it
Other times I do it on purpose
Sometimes it's meant to be a song
Going by my own beat
Or imitating the rhythm of another
Possibly songs you don't know
Or maybe your favorites
I don't know
Maybe you like them
Maybe you don't
I think songs are poems
And poems are songs
Or maybe I'm wrong?
I prefer lyrics
Writing from experience
Is the best in my mind
You write what you know
You know what you write
Scars are stories
Waiting to be told

Teenager

No longer a child
Not yet an adult
Trying to find my place
Trying to find a home
Find where I
Belong

Don't judge me by
My blood
Don't judge by flesh
And bone
If you must, then,
Judge me
By my heart
My intentions

Feeling like I'm wasting away
This town's going no
Where fast
And they tell me and tell me
Again and again
That this
World's coming to an end
It's only a matter
Of time
What if
Time's on my side?
I choose
To live this life

Don't judge me by
My blood
Don't judge by flesh
And bone
If you must, then,
Judge me
By my heart
My intentions

I want to change the world
Even if it's by one heart
One person at a time

My eyes are bloodshot
My mind, exhausted
My cramping wrist
My heart, still dreaming

Anarchy or Something Like It

Hold tight
Lest lose your mind
Sanity is your best bet
Dreaming
Will only get you so far
Hold on
It'll be alright
Hold your heart up high
Reaching for tomorrow
Clean this mess
Order the chaos
Find a method to madness
Clean this mess
Order the chaos
Find a method to madness
Is there reason to hope?
I don't know
But I believe
I believe
There's tragedy
Hold tight
Lest lose your mind
Sanity is your best bet
Dreaming
Will only get you so far
Hold on
It'll be alright
Hold your heart up high
Reaching for tomorrow

I
Hold the key to my conscience
I
Hold the key to my conscience
I
Hold the key to my conscience
I hold the key

Reaching for tomorrow

Tragedy,
Come follow me

Hold tight to your mind

Hold your heart up high

Clean this mess

I believe
I believe
I hold the key

Unlock my conscience
Open my mind
Open my eyes

Reaching for tomorrow